Maybe or Maybe Not....

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Meredith's POV:

            I woke up with a massive hangover. I start to slowly remember everything from last night. Oh my god i had sex with a random guy while i had a boyfriend. This was bad. Today was my day off and i had nothing to do but sit their in my bed with my thoughts. I then remember that i saw Cormac. He practically heard me have sex. The guy i love heard me have sex with someone else. No the guy i used to love, i try to convince myself. I heard my doorbell ring and go downstairs and open it. "Josh?". " What are you doing here?" i ask while he comes in and gives me a kiss on the cheek. " Well i knew it was your day off and it's mine too, so i wanted to come over here and spend time with my girlfriend." he tells me. I closed the door and looked at his face and i knew i couldn't look at him without telling him the truth. " I cheated on you." i blurted out and realizing what i just said. " What?" he asks confused. " Last night me and the girls went out to the club and met these guys and we danced, at first it was nothing and i was drunk and we kissed and it escalated quickly." i tell him very guilty. He walks up to me and puts his hand on my face looking deep in my eyes as i start to cry very softly. " It's okay, we weren't that serious anyways but that's what brings me to my next question." he says. " What, your not mad?" i ask. " No." he says. " Meredith do you want to be my girlfriend?" he asks very hopeful. I look at him and think of Cormac. " Josh, im not ready yet, i um had an ex and he hurt me very badly, i just need time, i hope you can understand." i say taking his hands off of me very gently. " Meredith, i will wait as long as you need me too, Okay?" he asks. "Okay." i say. We then walk over to my couch and start to watch a movie. My kids weren't home they were with Maggie at the zoo. So he was able to stay for most of the day.

Cormac's POV:

             I can't stop. I can't stop thinking of Meredith. I just need to see her. I contemplated going over to talk to her or not for about two hours. I finally decide to go over. I first went to a flower shop and got her some daisy's. I want her back. I love her and miss her. I start to drive up to her house and see a car their. She probably broke up with her boyfriend because she slept with another guy. I don't think she would cheat, she told me she is loyal the day i hit her. I remember that day and it pains me to think about that. I knew she was afraid of me but i had to try. I was about to get out of my car until something stopped me. What if i hit her again? What if she takes me back and i ruin everything? I shake these thoughts off and just got out of my car and walked to her porch. I was about to knock on her door until i hear giggling. I walk over to her window that shows into the living room. I see her laughing with a guy while they were watching a movie. He had his arm around her while she gave him a kiss on the lips. That broke me all over again. There's no getting her back she's too far gone. I drop the flowers and just walk back to my car in defeat and i slowly start to cry. I decide to just go home and i start driving. We were lovers that went wrong. We are too far gone and she looked so happy with that guy. I don't want to ruin that for her. I can't ruin that for her.

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