Maybe or Maybe Not....

To build a home

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Cormac's POV:
           It was nighttime already and we had Phil go get her body and bring it for our funeral. We knew we couldn't risk it in the daytime so we thought it out. Liam took the kids to the woods to pick out some flowers for her while I stayed with Jasper. I was sitting on the couch holding Jasper and just mesmerizing him. He looked just like Meredith. He has all her features and her beautiful hair. I felt sad knowing that I wasn't there to help her and raise him together. If only i would've done that she would be alive. Well no, the whole reason we were in this situation was because I was trying to save her and our family but it obviously didn't work out the way we wanted it too. I then hear the door open and see Liam and the kids back with a bunch of flowers in there hands. They went to the kitchen to grab a vase that was big enough to hold them while they go change. A few minutes went by and I got a text from Phil telling me he was outside with her body. I took jasper to his room and put him in the crib. I turned on some music for him to fall asleep with. I closed the door and went outside. I saw Phil come out of the truck. He took me to the back and let me get a glimpse of her body. " I'm warning you, don't think you want to see." He told me. " I need to see her." I respond. He then grabs the blanket that's covering her body and pulls it off enough to see her face. I couldnt help but cry. I just cried as Phil hugged me tight. I finally managed to stop crying and carried her body over by the lake. I layed her down on the canoe. I knew how much she wanted to have a peaceful funeral and not having it boring. I went back inside and got dressed and waited for the kids to come downstairs and finish getting ready. We all finally walk over to the lake not far from the secret base that was practically a house. We all stood by the body and put something that we cherished from her. I put down the wedding ring that I was going to propose to her with. I then grabbed the necklace from her neck and put it in my pocket. " I'll love you until forever ends." I whispered to her and kissed her head. I got up and let the kids say goodbye to her. It was Phil's turn to say bye to her. For the first time I saw him actually cry. He then held back his tears and got up from whispering something to her. I grabbed Jasper and let him say bye and he grabbed her face with his tiny hands and kissed her cheek. Then the kid put the flowers on her body. I handed him over to Austin who went inside with Ellis and Bailey. I didn't want them to see this part. I grabbed a bottle of bourbon next to me and poured it over her body. I then grabbed the paddle and pushed her in the water. I took the lighter  from Liam and we stepped back as it burned her body and drifted out into the water. " Goodbye mom." I hear Zola say. I wrapped her and Liam into a tight hug along with Phil. We stood their for a few moments before we left inside. I then sat on the couch in silence in my thoughts.

Flashback: 2 1/2 years ago in Meredith's bed.

" Hey Liam told me something that im not sure what it meant." She said as I was rubbing her back. " What did he tell you?" I asked. " Well he told me he's never seen you look so happy even with his mother. I don't mean that as in a rude way. I was just asking. Forget I ever said anything and we'll move in from it and" "Meredith" I cut her off. " Your rambling. But he's right." I admit. " What?" She asked confused. " Me and Abigail had out problems we have more bad moments than we had good. Don't get me wrong I loved her but she didn't make me as happy as you did. I feel sort guilty about that but it's true." I say. " You don't need to feel guilty Cor, it's just how you feel." She told me. I grabbed her wrist and just kissed it. " I love you" I say looking deep into her eyes. " And I love you." She says as we kiss. She then wrapped her arm around me cuddling me. As we drifted off to sleep.

Present time:

I got up from the couch and ordered a pizza because we hadn't had dinner yet and went up to look at some memories of her. I went to a box that she kept and there were many pictures of us. I just smiled seeing our memories together. I put it back and walked over to see Ellis playing with jasper. They both looked so much like there mom. She was in every single one of her kids. I will protect all of them no matter what.

A/n : this chapter was kinda rushed. I hope u like it. Let me know what you think. :)