I will never forget the day my heart broke two years ago, when Blake left. It is all my fault too, if I just had my shit together. Would we still be together? I know for certain I wouldn't have lost my virginity in a drunken, pill induced stupor. I still rememberer Sam laying into me about what happened. It was the first time we had a major fight.
"What the hell happened Ry?" Sam glares at me and I bow my head in shame as tears stream down my face. "You really did a number on him. He can't even enjoy his damn BIRTHDAY!!"
God I'm the worst person ever. I forgot his birthday. I open my mouth speak but she cuts me off. "I was really routing for you two, but now I'm not so sure."
"I'm truly sorry Sam." She ignores me and storms to my dresser and grabs the pills and goes to my bathroom and flushes them. I don't even fight her on it, I'm just numb.
"I love you Ry but you need help. These" she holds up the last pill bottle. "Are not going to help you." She flushes them down the toilet as well. I want to yell and throw shit. Those help me cope, but they have also messed up my life.
"You know he was so down that he didn't even want to go to his OWN birthday party that Chase was throwing him." She flails her arms around as her voice rises. My anger boils not because of her words but because I know what she saying is true. For that reason alone I hate myself right now. I find the nearest thing pick it up and throw it.When I hear it shatter I finally look at what I threw. It's a picture frame with a picture of me and Blake at the beach.
No! No! No!
I run over to the picture frame and run my finger over his face. My finger gets cut on the broken glass and blood drips down on the picture.
"I fucked up Sam! I know I did!" I scream at the top of my lungs. I'm crying hysterically. She rushes over to me and hugs me.
"It's going to be okay. You guys will get through this." Just then her phone rings and she looks at it and smiles. "It's Blake." I reluctantly let go of Sam and she answers her phone.
"Hey Blake. How was your birthday party?" Then I see her smile falter. I bite my finger, a bad habit when I'm nervous.
"What?!"
"No! I don't understand!" Her face has paled and now I'm freaking out.
"Do not go anywhere, I'll be right there."
She ends the call and glares at me. What the hell happened? I'm afraid to ask but I need to know.
"What happened? Is Blake okay?"
"No Riley, he's not! He's leaving!"
"What?!" I jump up and start shaking. Sam puts a hand out to stop me.
"Don't! I got to go to stop my idiot brother. But I swear Ry if he does leave and does come back I don't want you two together. It's toxic and not good for either of you!" I start crying again and Sam rushes to leave and I run after her she turns back and looks at me. "I love you Ry but I really wish you two never started anything then I wouldn't be losing my brother and you." With that she slams the door and I crumble to the floor and cry. I really fucked up.
"Earth to Red!" I snap out of my thoughts when Max waves his hand in front of my face. I ran into Max about a week ago on my way to campus.
"Huh! Sorry Max. What did you say?" He rolls his eyes and pats my arm. "Girl you need to stop living in the past." I run my hands through my hair in frustration. "I know Max, but what if I messed up the greatest thing to ever happen to me? What if I never find that connection again?'
I caught Max up on everything that has happened in the past two years. He knows all my fuck ups. While I was spiraling out of control he was getting his shit together.
"Ya and what if my asshole spits out buttermilk?" I spit out my drink and it sprays all over his face.
"Oh my God! I am so sorry and eww gross." I can't help but laugh as I help him wipe his face.
He laughs and shakes his head. "It's alright Red, I know how you can make it up to me." He raises an eyebrow and smirks at me.
"Oh fuck! What do I have to do?"
"Come with me to the club to celebrate Mateo's birthday."
I groan and cover my face with my hands. "I can't, I don't know if I can do that." He puts a hand over mine and tilts my chin up to look at him. "You'll be fine Red I promise. I booked the whole club for us so nothing bad will happen. Invite your friends too."
"Fine but I still don't think this is a good idea."
"Girl please you need to get out of this funk and get laid."
I wave my hands around dramatically. "Just because you found your boo doesn't mean I will."
He blushes and I know he is thinking about Mateo. He told me about how they became more than friends about six months ago. He didn't even know he was attracted to men until he bumped into him and now the rest is history.
"You know once upon a time Red I would have fucked you good. But now I think he is the real deal." I throw my head back and laugh. "I might have felt a connection back then but nobody could compare to Blake."
Just thinking about him turns my mood sour. He left me and didn't say goodbye. We could have tried to work things out but he bailed and I'm not sure if I could forgive him for that. But most of all I miss my friend he was there for me through it all.My thoughts of Blake are so conflicted.
"You know what you are right Max. I'll go." He has the biggest grin on his face.
"Today is the day I forget all about Blake Makenzie once and for all."
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Turn Up The Heat
Romance(COMPLETED) "You left me when I needed you." Riley shoves Blake against the wall. She's filled with so much anger and hurt. The one person in the world who always said he would be there for her took off for four years. "I made a mistake Ry but I'm h...
