I'm a fucking idiot, that's all there is to it. We haven't even married for that long and what do I do I go and fuck it up. If I just told her why I am so desperate to get back out there, maybe she would understand why. When she stormed out of the doctor's office I knew I really fucked up. She looked so damn hurt.
I try calling her but it goes straight to voicemail. "Baby I'm so fucking sorry. I'm the biggest idiot on the whole fucking planet. I love you." I end the call and hit the steering wheel, "Fuuuuuck!" Why did I have to fucking yell at her? I mean she is pregnant with my babies for God's sake. My phone rings and I answer through Bluetooth. " Hey sis."
"Don't you hey sis me! You are such a dumbass Blake."
"Where's Ry?"
"I'm picking her up now. What the hell did you do?"
Fuck that means she still there and I left. I am the biggest idiot.
"I really screwed up Sam. I yelled at her saying that I had to go back to work."
"Blake you IDIOT!!! You are not completely HEALED!!"
"I wasn't thinking about the consequences."
"Well no shit sherlock! Just make it right. I will tell her to call you. Since I know you have probably tried to call her a million times by now.'
"Thanks sis I love you too."
She ends the call as I pull up to our house. Once I walk in it just feels so empty without her here. I throw my cane because this is all my fault, and I feel like shit. My leg is throbbing but that is the least of my worries right now. Right now I need my wife home with me. My phone rings and I hobble over to get it on the table by the door.
"Wildfire, I'm so sorry baby."
"Hey." I hear her sniffle and I have already broken one of my vows to her. I feel myself wanting to break down.
"Please come home." She takes a deep breath and she whispers, "I can't" I feel like I am going to fucking lose it and take some deep breaths. The last time I had a panic attack is when I thought I cheated on Ry when in fact I didn't. "If you can't realize that you are putting yourself in danger. Especially when you are Not completely healed, then there is nothing to talk about right now."
"I have to do this Ry, you don't understand."
"NO YOU DON'T BLAKE!!! You have a choice, but if you want to hurt yourself, or others because you NEED to do this now that's selfish. Instead you need to wait until you are completely healed, and if you can't see that there is nothing to talk about right now."
She ends the call and I run my hands through my hair in frustration about the whole ordeal. Why is it so wrong that I want to help people so what happened to my wife doesn't happen to someone else. I open the door to head back out and Scott is about to knock on the door.
"I was just about to come see you."
He doesn't say anything he just punches me in the arm.
"Ow what the fuck man." I rub my arm, I can't believe he has a strong punch. "You're and idiot Blake you know that right." I limp over to the couch and run my hands over my face. "I know, I have been hearing that a lot today." He pats me on the arm and sits down next to me. "I also have a message from Chief. He said and I quote there is no way in hell you gonna be on call until you are cleared to."
"I'm doing all this for Ry."
He gives me a sympathetic look, "Shit Blake, you can't save everyone. You know that, we were taught that. We do what we can."
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Turn Up The Heat
Romance(COMPLETED) "You left me when I needed you." Riley shoves Blake against the wall. She's filled with so much anger and hurt. The one person in the world who always said he would be there for her took off for four years. "I made a mistake Ry but I'm h...
