Not everything is Planned

chapter 21

Tw: blood, cussing

Emily's pov

"Jennifer, you're going to be okay," I say placing my hand on the bullet whole on her side to slow the bleeding. "I need a medic, right now!"

I yelled as loud as i could for people to come and get me a damn medic, it took forever.

"JJ, baby, look at me," I say. "Keep your focus on me!"

I was sobbing and there was so much blood on the ground. She was dying right in front me.

"Finally, what the fuck took you guys so damn long!?" I say once the medic finally got there, they shot me a look.

The two guys just looked at me. One of them took my place as they got JJ into the ambulance. I got in with them.

Ring ring ring

I picked up my phone. "Hotch," I say when i answered.

"What the hell happened!? Where are you?" He said cutting me off.

"Somethung happened.. JJ she was shot, she lost so much blood." I cried. "Hotch I need to stay with JJ, can," I took a deap breath. "Can you please tell her mom whats going on? Shes looking after Henry."

"Of course," with that he hung up and went straight to see JJs mother and tell the rest of the team what happened, i never left her side.

We got to the hostpital and they strated to wheel JJ in, once they hooked her up she started to flatlining..

"We're loosing her!" One of the docters yelled.

I stood there, helpless watching as they scrambled to save my girlfriend. I was freaking out. They got her stabled and rushed her into surgery, i was alone.

"Emily! Oh my god what happened? Are you okay?" Someone said from behind me it wasnt until i turned around and relized it was Garcia.

"Pen! Oh thank god!" I wrap my arms around her, giving her a hug. "I'm ok, but JJ, they just rushed her into surgery."

All these thoughts flooded my mind and the what if, it was driving me crazy. The rest of the team came to sit and wait to hear about JJ.

"Hey Em, you okay?" Morgan asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just need some air.."

I got up and walked outside and let all the tears slip out of my eyes. I need JJ to be okay and I need her with me.

"Emily?" Morgan asked as he saw me crying outside. "Emily, whats wrong?"

"It's my fault.." I say softly. "It's my fucking fault. If i got there faster JJ wouldn't be here in surgery and docters wouldn't be-" i sobbed getting quieter as i spoke.

I fell into morgans arms and he held me there. I sobbed into he shoulder hoping that JJ was going to pull through.

"I need her Derek."

"I know you do, but this is not your fault Emily, stop beating yourself up about it."

I knew he was right, but who else could i blame? If i was faster she wouldn't be here thats the truth.

"I love her, so damn much," I cried harder.

Thinking about loosing JJ broke my heart, i would break if she doesn't make it.

"Emily!" Someone yelled from behind. I looked behind me and it was Henry and Sandy, JJs mom.

"Henry!" I yell wiping my tears as I pick him up.