Not everything is Planned

Chapter 14

The rest of that day was a blur. After Emily and I were in the hallway all the nurses hooked Spence up to things we heard his moniter.. it was flat lining..

I dropped to the floor and Emily hugged me. I turned around and cried into her shoulder.

"No.. no, this can not be real!" I yelled with tears streaming my face.

I really couldnt think, so much shit has happened over the past 3 months. Will hasn't been caught yet, Spence was in a coma. And I, i haven't been doing well at all.

"JJ, it's okay, everything will be okay." Emily tried to say, but the nurses said something different.

"I'm sorry.. but he's gone.." the nurses said.

At this point I couldnt stop crying. It was my fault that Spence isn't here. I couldn't handle it.

"No, no, that's not true!" I yelled.

"I'm very sorry." The nurses said once again.

"This is all my fault." I say looking up at Emily. She looked shocked.

"JJ, this is not your fault!" She said in a very stern voice. But she was wrong it was all my fault.

"Em stop!" I yelled. "This is all my damn fault!"

After I said that Emily called Hotch and the rest of the team to tell then the news.. I was just hoping that Morgan wasn't going to be pissed at me..

Emilys pov

I grabbed my phone after JJ was almost done crying and called Hotch.

"Hotch, hey.. you, you need to get to the hospital. Reid, he's not ok.." I cried into the phone.

"I'll be right there and I'll gather the team." Hotch said and with that he hung up the phone.

"Um, the team will be here soon.." I said to JJ.

I didn't know what was going on in her mind and what she was going to do. I'm just hoping that she doesn't blame herself for this, it isn't JJs fault.

A few minutes go by and the rest of the team hurried in.

JJs pov

"What's going? What happened?" Morgan asked right a way.

"Um, he- he flatlined.." JJ sobbed.

"What!" Morgan said his voice getting louder.

I felt eyes all over me. Everyone staring at me. I couldn't breath.

"I- I need to go." I say running out of the hospital quickly.

I didn't really know where I was going, but I knew I couldn't do this anymore. I cant live with this guilt for the rest of my life. It's my fault, I should've never got Spencer involved in any of this.

"I dont know what to do.." I whispered to myself. I was I I don't know what I was feeling then, but I just couldnt deal with anything.

I kinda just stayed in one place for a couple hours because I didn't know jere else to go. I then went to the water and decided to text Emily.

Emily's pov

"Where the hell is JJ?" Morgan asked.

"She probably just went for a walk.." Garcia chimed in.

I just had a bad feeling about this, JJ never would just run off without talking to me. Just then I got a text..

JJ
Hey Em, I just wanted to say is that I can't do this, live with this guilt. I'm going to go be with my sister, just know that I love you so much and never stopped. You were my first love..

Emily
JJ, where are you?
Talk to me
I'm here jen
Please.

"Guys.." I say with tears in my eyes.

"What happened?" Hotch asked.

"JJ.. she's said she's going to go be with her sister.." I say this tike tears rolling down my face.

"But isn't her sister... dead..?" Garcia asked confused.

"Okay, everyone calm down. I might know where she is." Htoch finally said.

We all got into the SUVs and started driving to the water, and there she was JJ about to jump.

"JJ.. come down. Please." I beg.

"Why? There is nothing here." She cried.

"Yes, yes there is!" I persuaded.

"Like what? I lost my bestfriend today." She said. And Damn that made me pissed.

"And? Jennifer, You dont think we did! Reid was all of our friend and we lost him to!" I yelled.

"I'm sorry, this is my fault." I cried.

"No, dont balme your self this is your dumbass ex boyfriends fault and if you do this you will never get to see him rot in jail!" I yelled again.

"Em.."

"And.. I love you JJ, you were my first love too.." I say truthfully hoping it will make her come down.

It worked, JJ fell into my arms and I kissed her forehead. I don't know if she will be okay, but I will be with her all the time 24/7. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have Jennifer Jearue with me here in my arms.

A/B: I'm so sorry guys! I know a lot of you are going to be mad about reid and I am too, but I had to add something. But I think this chapter turned out okay. Like i said I think. I would love it if you told your friends to read this maybe? Idk. Hope you enjoyed this chapter! I'm sorry if there are some mistakes, it's late and dont feel like proofreading.