My lion, My llama (:Phan:)

Six

Phils POV

The worst words that could ever come out of Chris' mouth. It squirmed through my head violently.

"Phil,I'm sorry i just don't like you the same way anymore"

I feel like I'm ready to die. i rest my face. I'm shocked. What happened to make him think this. i love him. i thought that he was the one i want to go home. I just want to leave. I want Chris to love me again.

I walk out of the room without a word. i don't need to say anything. "Dan, lets go home"

"what, why we just about got here whats up with you?"

Dan grabs my arm, pulling me back to him. So with the anger that's burning in my heart I look at him dead in the eye. "Dan. train now." I basically scream at him. "Phil-" I cut him off. "Lets go!"

Dan jumps, He has never seen me like this in a while. and he knew something was up the moment i raised my voice, same for Pj. Dan knew best and walked with me after saying goodbye to Pj and Chris.

"What the hell Phil whats your problem?" he asks me as i power walk out the hospital door. I don't answer but i turn around when he stops walking. "Phil?!" He gives me an angry stare as if i did something wrong. this is the time i need to tell him. I open my mouth but no words come out like i was hoping for, instead tears come running down my face. Dans face changes from extreme anger to worried in a second. At least my friend cares about my feelings. Dan come towards me, putting his hand on my arm. I shove his warm hand away. I turn around, and make my way to the underground entrance. Dan doesn't say anything. witch makes me think he finally gave up making me feel better in public. I don't want to tell him about my Boyfriend. nonetheless That im gay.

-o-

Dans opens the door entrance to our apartment, Looking at me with a stare that screams "Go ahead, let it out. its okay now." Dans being so caring again. I don't get why because I've been kinda rude to him for about two weeks. I walk in and fall apart the moment i step in. "Phil, please tell me whats wrong?" He tells me. Should I, I've been gay for 3 years but he doesn't know. it could be time that i do... Dan sits down, as do I. "Dan, I've been keeping something from you for a while now..." i sniffle, calming myself down until i notice its not possible for me to. so i break down again.

"Phil, please. Can i tell you about my weird dream? Will that cheer you up?"

I think about it. wiping away my tears.

"ya sure go ahead."

"I had a dream that umbrellas fell from the sky. along with some balloons. and then you and me were cops and we arrested all the dinosaurs that were pouring all of them on to earth." He giggles

That made me happier. a bit. "That's a pretty weird dream Dan haha" Dan smiles, signaling that I am happier then i was when i walked in.

"So what was your dream about Phil?"

"OK, well i was a knight." Dan types on his computer as i tell him.

"D- Dan are you listening?" I question, confused.

"Yea, I'm looking up what your dream means. Keep going."

He looks at me with the most interested face. Its nice to know that he cares about what I dreamt about.

"and me you and pj had to fight have octopuses from queen Delia."

Dan laughs loudly the same time i do. "Amazing ummm, your dream means..." He continues typing.

"To dream that you are knighted indicates that you are being recognized for your good character. You are being entrusted with power and authority.And...
To see an octopus in your dream means that you are entangled in some difficult matter. Your judgment is being clouded. Alternatively, the octopus indicates that you are overly possessive and maybe too clingy in a relationship."

I look down, amazed at how accurate it was.

"Phil, are you OK?" Dan asks

"Yea, umm" I look at his stabbing brown eyes. "Dan... can you keep a secret?" I ask, Its time for me to tell him. "Yea Phil of course!" I look down, not wanting to look in his eye when i tell him. "I figured out that i was Gay 3 years ago..." My voice getting shallower with each word only out of fear that he wont treat me the same way.

Dans voice became present. "Phil, its OK... i accept you for who you are" What?
This isn't how my parents reacted. "And umm... me and Chris were dating... but umm not anymore" Dans face went from smiling to infuriated. "What!? since when?" Are me and Chris still dating? Chris' voice came in my head again reminding me what happened earlier.

"since earlier, that's why we left the hospital." Dan hugs me mid sentence. He knew i was gonna cry. i could tell.