My lion, My llama (:Phan:)

Twelve

Phil POV

          Dan really made me angry. I know he didn't want it to end up negatively, but I don't simply don't like him that way. I don't want the crazy phan shippers to know anything, its already bad as it is and its not even real. Dan really twisted how I though of him.

I'm really confused because Dan told me he was surely straight plenty of times, he kisses me and changes his mind. I could understand why he drew draw Phil naked, but not the way he did. He really likes to draw and it would be acceptable if he covered my willy up. and the Phanfictions were well written, but most of them are smut.

I try to forget what happened. My position on my floor changes from leaning on the wall with my knees near my face, to laying down where my toes are near the end of my bed. I look to the ceiling and I notice how my brain is constantly active. I'm always thinking and I never stop thinking no matter what.

In this position, I notice things i wouldn't normally notice, Like the light on my ceiling and how nice it is. and I notice the pretty painting on my wall, Its my favorite draw Phil naked a fan ever made. but that brings me back to what i trying to forget.

The painting that Dan did. I actually really liked it, It was oddly charming.

... even though I have my willy out.

But he did draw it a decent size at least. doesn't make much since doesn't it?

after the hours pass, I realize I wish it was Dans painting on my wall instead.

The one on my wall currently was lovely, but The one I'm holding up to my chest, squeezing. Has deeper meaning in it to me.

Phan couldn't be real.

But it could be.

No it cant.

The Phans would love it.

They would love it so much.

But it cant be real. I blew it.

They don't have to know.

But they deserve to.

Its too late to say sorry to Dan. As I'm not even half way in my hour-long break down moment. It just started. Tears fall down again and again. One after another. bit by bit.

I cant believe I'm saying it... but I'm in love with my best friend.

A/N

ERR Im sooo sorry this chapter is so short. I think im gonna keep each chapter a bit longer then this. short chapters, but a ton of chapters. I also having psycho writers block on this. but i have a lot planned in this story, and for a whole new Phanfiction! I think im gonna go start on that right now actually hhehehehe...

Thanks for reading!!!!