My lion, My llama (:Phan:)

Three

Phil POV

I rush into the hospital doors so fast my shoe almost flings off, I push anyone in my way aside.querying the girl at the desk, While i lean against the tall desk.

"What room is Chris Kendall in?" I spit out my words in a rush. its kinda hard to understand me i bet.

She starts to quickly type on to her computer giving me an odd look, looking frightened. i don't care if everyone in the line hate me right now I just want to see my boyfriend.

"19B- "

I cut her off, barely thanking her and running off to find 19B. I honsetly just blurted out thank you in the weirdest way possible. im in a hurry but that dosent mean i cant be kind to a nurse thats helping me. I run upstairs. hoping that the letter B stands for what floor the room is on. I look to the first Door on my right. reading "30B' I agree that im on the same floor. adrenaline Kicking in, for the first time in months im actually nervous to see my boyfriend. when halfway down the hall i see Pj. Leaning on the wall in tears. Just seeing one of my friends like that along with thinking about what this means has happened to Chris, i start getting treary eyed.

"PJ!" I yelp, my voice sounding in tremendous pain. My voice cracked mildly. He looks up, relived that i showed up.But still crying. I slow down infront of him as he stands up infront of me. "phil" He wipes away his tears and sniffles, places his warm hand on my shoulder. I break down anxious to know what happened.

"Chris needs you. something terrible has happend." Pj wipes away his tears. As do i.

I open the door only to see the worst sight ive ever seen.  I start to ball my eyes out. Chris stares at me with no emotion. he looks slender, bags under his eyes. "Phil" he pleaded, reaching out to me with his mind. "Chris" i hug him. even though he's lie down.

"Phil, please don't freak out when i tell you." I look into his eyes and nod hoping for his answer. Not letting go.

"Phil" there was a pause as he starts to cry, covering his face with his hands.

"I have breast cancer"

I lie there hugging him tightly as my world shaders. I cry louder. My grib gets tighter.

"Chris!" I some how let out of my deep breathes. Chris holds me. it was a good bad feeling that i wanted to end.
I pull away. Calming my self down and tell him quicky before i start balling again.

"Im not going to leave you! im staying in the hospital for tonight, and the next night. they would have to kill me to make me go. i want to be with you all the way through this and i want to hold your hand for months just dont forget. I love you."

My last three words ending me in tears. i sit on the chair next to the bed. Chris surprisingly crying less then me.

I start to calm down when he holds my hand. I love him. I love his touch and how warm his hands always were. I had to calm down, Pj was still outside and the doctor was still gonna come in some time.

"Phil please,"

I hear come out of chris' lovely mouth.
I wipe away tears and look at him in his amazing brown eyes. i can swim in them for days.

We hear a knock on the door, followed by Pjs voice with permission to come in.
"Come in" chris answers.

Pj opened the door silently along with the doctor.

"Oh, chris cant have any visitors right now, im sorry. but you have to leave"

No. i cant leave my boyfriend. i stand up and rush towards him. Pj looks confused and surprised that i would ever look so intimidating.

"I am NOT going to leave my friend here, and be an asshole! now, i stay here, or he leaves with me."

"Well if he leaves and doesn't have the surgery, then he could die. Now, leave"

"NO!"

I scream. Pj at this point pulling me back. he tells me i have to leave too, Pj starts to pull me away from Chris. "Im sorry, hes just upset" Pj apologized to the bitch doctor.

"NO! CHRIS!?!"

I scream. I want him. i try to fight back but IM not as strong as Him. Pj pushes me into the lift. Leaving me no choice but to go home with Pj I don't feel like explaining it all to dan tonight. so thats what ill do when i come back from the hospital Tomorrow...

"Phil!" Pj grabs my wrist and pulls me out the lift on to the bottom floor. but i was covering my face when tears were falling down my cheeks.

"Phil you really need to calm down-"

"I CANT! MY CHRIS NEEDS ME!"

Pj takes me to the bus hugging me and comforting me as i cry.

-o-

I walk into Pjs door. I lay on the couch and ask for a duvet. I cant sleep without Chris, knowing he's like this is crazy, surreal. I cant stop me from my thoughts until i realize ive been laying here for an hour just thinking. i knew that Pj was asleep, and i want to see Chris.

The more i think the more a start to make a plan for myself. a plan for tonight. it was only 1AM. I need to see him. When does the depot store close?

I get up, i feel the cold air when it hits my bare arms. step after step i think of how much i need this. I put my hand on the door knob. Its crazy what goes on in my brain. Im insane.

The knob turns, makes a slight creaking noise as i push it. i start running to the depot, i dont have much time till the sun comes out.

-o-

"Thank you"
Im smart, but also insane. I grab the latter from the man, the hospital is freakishly close to the depot. so i can just walk there.
As i get closer, i identify Chris' window, on the second floor. it looks big enough...
I climb around the back of the hospital, Thank god theres no one here and everyones asleep. And the ladder is big enough! Perfect! I climb up , and open Chris' door. Hes so beautiful when he sleeps, its so adorable.

"Chris!"
As i shake his body to wake him up, he lets out a little "mphf" He's sleepy. But after a while of me just staring at him in the pure darkness of the room, he opens his eyes, sensing theres something on his arms.

"Morning beauty! i told you id be here for you, i snuck in with a ladder."

His face filled with shock and excitement mixed together like cake batter. pure smooth, just like his skin texture.

"Phil! i love you so much, but you have to get out of here! i dont want to get you in trouble!"

"But-"

He cut me off
"Phil."

On second thought my mom wouldn't be to happy if she knew what i have done.
"Ok, goodbye kiss?"

"Yes,"

We put our lips together. again, best feeling ever.

-o-

Walking down the empty street hit it for me. The tears running down my face going along with the tune stuck in my head. i sit down infront of the apartment building. Ive been waling for so lond i actuly found my way home.

i start humming to the words in my head.

my heart is broken, somebody fix it. my walls are closing, caught in a deep hole, stuck at the bottem.

trying to reach for-

I found myself singing the lyrics out loud by the time i burry my head in my arms with my knees pulled up to my chest. a waterfall coming out of my eyes

help.

I want him back. I miss him so much

A/N:
Hey guys! thanks for actually reading! the video is the song phil had in his head at the end, hope you guys like the story so far!