SCATTERED WAVES (COMPLETED)

EPILOGUE

[Epilogue playlist: After The Heartbreak by Brielle Von Hugel]

play the song before proceeding.

Every pain is personal, no matter how many people try to say "We understand," they don't. It may be similiar but the pain will never be the same, the wound will always be different and scars are distinct.

Hinayaan kong hampasin ng hangin ang mahaba kong buhok, I close my eyes and let the ocean waves serenade my ears, it sounds so good, relaxing, it cleanses my internal bleed.

"So, how is it?" Napadilat ako at napatingin sa tumabi, "When will you purchase this yacht?"

Napakunot ang noo ko ng mapagtanto kung sino ang sumulpot, "What are you doing here?" Inilagay ko sa ulo ang sunglasses at binalik ang tingin sa karagatan, if it's my lucky day, surely the dolphins will show themselves.

"You need someone to talk to." Saw him shrugged in my peripheral vision.

"Thanks Sheldon Klause."

He chuckles, "For what?"

"In my darkest times when I was in Yale, you were also there with me." Bigla akong nagtaka, he's here again when I'm healing. "I forgot to thank you, but how exactly you got here?"

"Through a jetski, I have something for you." Ngumuso sya kaya napatingin ako sa mini table, I saw bouquet of chinese trumphet vine, there's an envelope with it.

"Throw it away." binalik ko ang tingin sa dagat, sa bulaklak palang alam ko na kung kanino galing.

"Atleast read the letter? It's for closure? maybe." Sinamaan ko sya ng tingin bago inirapan, no thanks. "Cut your bitterness, why? Haven't moved on yet?"

"Are you teasing me? Gusto mo lunurin kita dito?" Malalim akong bumuntong-hininga, "I've moved on, I don't need closure."

"Closure..." sumandal sya sa railings at tumitig saakin, "It happens after you accept that letting go and moving on is more important than projecting a fantasy of how the relationship could have been. You're still resenting yourself, yeah? Let it go."

I pursed my lips, unable to disagree. Naglakad ako papunta sa table at kinuha ang bulaklak, I sat on the beach chair and stare at the petals.

"Trumpet vine represents a fresh start." Sinulyapan ko lang si Sheldon, where did he get that? "Start again, Belle. Stop blaming yourself, find a courage to let go of what you can't change."

Its not painful anymore. Letting go? I'm trying, but the hardest part of letting go is knowing the other person already did, a long time ago.

I grab the small envelope from the bouquet, napahigpit ang hawak ko dito, "You know what..." napatungo ako at napatitig sa hawak, "I didn't lose feelings for him but I had to walk away.. It's not like I don't want to be with him anymore, because I do, but things didn't get better no matter how long I waited."

I opened the envelope, I saw a photo and a letter with Zayn Isles Hamilton as the sender.

"Dilancy give birth yesterday." I stared at the photo of a newborn baby, the nose has the resemblance of Zayn, too cute... so beautiful. "It's a boy."