JOURNEY TO HERE (ON HOLD)

CHAPTER 3

John stepped off the elevator and walked into the small reception office. There was just one desk with a women behind it and about ten vacant chairs where he assumed other patients 'if that's what you called them' waited until they were called "Hi I'm here to see Doctor Brown I'm his two o'clock appointment." John said in a deep baritone voice.

The receptionist looked up and gave John a once over glance sizing him up before giving him a dazzling smile "Yes.... Mr. Davis" The lady said standing and walking around to the front of the desk where John was standing. "Follow me over to the waiting area and I will let Doctor Brown know that you have arrived. She walked ahead of John making sure that she put a extra swing in her step just for him. "Now you can have seat right here" She said grabbing his hand and leading over to the chair. Once John was seated she rested her hand on his knee "Now if you need anything my name is Janice you just let me know okay" she said before standing and waiting on his reply. John smiled and said thank you not trying to give any type of hope to the women with her not so subtle flirting. He was not interested. Feeling as though she had lost the battle Janice quickly walked over to her desk and took a seat.

"So John how are you? What brings you to my office today?" Doctor Brown said crossing one leg over the other and writing on his note pad. Doctor Brown was an elder white man with salt and pepper hair over his head. John wondered what in the hell he could possibly be writing on that note pad already and he just walked in and set down.

"Well.... I came here just to really talk about how I can......I guess... get myself together" John said stumbling over his words as he talked. He found it ironic that he have made over a thousand speeches in his career to sometimes millions of people at a time, but found it hard to talk to a psychologist about himself.

"ok well exactly what about yourself would you like 'get together' then?"

Everything. John thought to himself but not saying it out loud. " I guess just get my family and live back to some kind of normality."

"Family.....before you can try and make what has went right...you must acknowledge what went wrong. Who is April?"

Just her name had John choked up. Hell the doctor knew who she was, He read his file. Come on man you cant sit up in here like bitch and cry within the first ten minutes. John said to himself trying to get his feelings in check. Which wasn't working at the moment. John let out a deep breath and begin talking not sure if he would break down at any minute. But he was willing to anything at this point if it would help him get to where he needed to be with Tammy.

"She was my daughter" John said in almost a low whisper. "me and Tammy's first daughter"

"and what happened to her" Doctor Brown probed