Truly Yours || Suho Exo ||

three

Author's POV

it was saturday today, y/n's graduation ceremony, the past week was very unusual for joonmyeon, the y/n who would never stop talking, the girl who keep throwing questions so that there will always be a conversation between the them, the girl who always made sure to schedule a lunch delievery to his office with a sweet note almost everyday inspite of her own university work, the girl who would gladly make a fool out of her ownself, just to see a smile on his face....... was behaving really strangely, she just started staying in her room all day, the only time they meet was at breakfast and dinner table, but she started avoiding that as well, the way she used to smile brightly opening the door for him and asking him about his day was all gone. the girl even started avoiding his eyes, suho could feel the odd in her behaviour and honestly it was affecting him somewhere. yes suho had always been a cold man, he was never expressive of his emotions, not even to his mom, or actually step-mom, joonmyeon's mom died when he was only 10, one of the reasons behind his cold demeanour today, his dad married another women, but unlike usual step mom's she was a nice person. there was a time in his teenage when he was engulfed by darkness, he was too young for the shit life was showing him and there was a time... he decided to close his eyes, thats when this women whom he call mom today came in his life "joonmyeon-a,maybe you will never accept me as your mother, but i have already accepted you as my son, please don't do this....this world has been cruel to you at such a young age, but you don't deserve all this...just hold on joonmyeon-a this shall also pass" these were her exact words, and after that suho never went to the roof with the same intention ever again. suho had his walls up high, he was a person hard to love and wasn't even expecting anyone to actually love him, at first he had to agree to this relationship because his fathers persistence and company's profit, but y/n who at first felt just like an extra baggage to him whom he had to carry the rest of his life really showed him what it's like to be taken care of and be loved. without even realizing suho was slowly starting to accept her in his life, since the day she moved on with him his house became more warm and lively, he became more comfortable around her and her small gestures were slowly building up a warm feeling inside him, without him himself, noticing she quietly sneaked her way inside his heart

today her university life was officially ending, the graduation ceremony! a memorable day in one's life, a day everyone celebrate and cherish with their families, but there was our y/n quietly sitting in the stairs alone with her graduation certificate lying somewhere behind, staring at her lucky classmates who were laughing and enjoying this time with their loved once. her father never cared about her enough, he was just focused on his brother or you should say the soon to be CEO of his father's company, her older brother baekhyun.

"are you just gonna stare?" y/n who was earlier sitting totally alone in the staircase felt someone's presence, he just quietly sat down beside her

"joonmyeon-ssi! you here?" y/n asked shocked as she faced him to get a better view of his face

" well you told me that day today is your graduation day, it didn't seemed like you told your family either so i thought you might need some company" he simply said

there was a heavy silence between them for a moment before he stood up and extended his right hand towards her

"for you" there was a beautiful bouquet of white roses in his hand which left her in aww.

white roses represents youthfulness and are often used in graduation ceremonies and other good occassions, atleast that's what y/n thought, little did she knew white roses also represents young and everlasting pure love.

"thankss" she was smiling sweetly at the flowers and he was smiling seeing her, her smile just took him to another world, a world he would never wanna come back from

"do you know what does white roses mean" he asked casually as they walked past the beautiful garden in the middle of the university building, it was mostly empty as most of the children were in the ceremony hall

"honestly... no" y/n rubbed her neck in embaressment

they just kept walking quietly it was around 7 pm, dinner time, streets and restaurants were getting busier and the streets became more lively

suddenly suho stopped in front of a restaurant. it was kinda secluded and old

"lets eat out today" he suggested smiling

'this freaking smileee of his' y/n was again fangirling inside but managed to not let it show on her face

"o-ok"

they went inside and ordered their food soon, they were awkwardly waiting for their order to be made when suho finally broke the silence

"so are you planning on getting a job as your university is finished?" he just wanted to initiate a conversation

"hmm" was all she responded staring at her fingers in her lap

y/n was still avoiding his eyes the whole time, the y/n who used to never avoid or ignore his eyes intentionally, the y/n who used look at him as if he is everything she have been looking for in her entire life. there was a hint of hurt and disappointment in his eyes but he chased them away soon, maybe she needs time... i never treated her the way she deserves...its only fair if she also treats me the way i treated her he thought

the waiter soon arrived with their order

"please enjoy the food" he said and left, and they started eating

the dinner went by really quite, no one of them uttered a single word, suho was glancing her in between but her stare was fixated on the food

"uhm..waitor can i have a soju" he called the waiter and ordered he looked at y/n with questioning eyes

"ahh yes one for me to" the waiter bowed and left

the starting of their drinking session was quite silent and awkward but gradually as more drinks went inside, the more they came out of their shell of silence. by the end of their 7th soju bottle they both were a bit tipsy, suho had a good alcohol tolerance but same was not the case for y/n, she was quite...no actually VERY drunk, to the point she was spattering all kind of non sense in front of him which she will obviously regret in the morning.

"waiter can we have the bill please?" suho asked

"lets go y/n" suho extended his hand to a very tipsy y/n who was playing with tissue paper box like a nursery kid, her cheeks were all red cute he whispered

"come on y/n let's go"

"no! i won't walk, give me a piggy back ride or i won't move an inch" y/n complained with a pout. he was taken aback by her sudden request but agreed

he paid the bill and lifted her up on his back, her purse was on his neck hung like a waterbottle and her heels were in her hands swinging from left to right. she was not as heavy as he thought, she kept on blabbering things and suho was listening to her quietly occasionally responding with a hum

"you know once when i was 17 year old a boy in my class proposed me, i always used to like him and we started dating"

"then" he asked her to continue

"then.... baekhyun got to know about him and told father, i was locked in my room for 2 days then, my father told me that i already have a fiance and i can't date anyone, after that i don't know what happened not only that boy but no boy ever approached me again" she ended her sentence with a sigh leaning on his back more. there was again a long silence before suho continued

"that was because of me right? no wonder you hate me so much" suho chuckled bitterly

"noooo i never hated you actually" she leaned towards his ears "i love you! so so so much"

"really? then why do you act so cold towards me nowdays?" he asked sadly

there was a long silence before she answered

"i also don't like to treat you like this.... but its important, i can't let you get hurt later.." her last sentence was almost a whisper but luckily suho heard it

"wait what do you mean?" he tried to interrogate but stopped when soft snores entered his ears, she was fast asleep snuggling into his neck from the back

something is definately not right not right