suicide attempt // nash grier

twenty-two

Julianne POV

Today I'm going somewhere with Nash. He's taking me to some type of field to spark some memories.
(a/n chapter 12)

I get to the park and see him leaning against his car.

"Come on" He smiles wide and waves telling me to follow.

He grabs my arm when he noticed I was lagging behind. We get to a big tree in the middle of the field that has lights on it and blankets strung from it.

Suddenly, I collapse.

"I wanted to make something as amazing as you." Nash smiles and kisses my lips. "But it's not even close."

"Here." I give him a small box. He repeats the action and hands me a box.

Nash opens his box to reveal a bracelet. The bracelet has the date that they began dating on it. "I know how much you love bracelets so I got you this." I smile. "Thank you so much!" He slides on the bracelet and hugs me.

"Your turn." Nash says looking down at the present. I open the blue and yellow box to see a necklace. The necklace was the shape of a heart and opened up to reveal a picture. The picture was of Nash and I on their first date. A small tear falls from my eye once I see it. "You can fit this next to your heartbeat where I should be. Keep it deep within your soul." Nash said referring to our favorite song.

"Thank you so much." I throw myself into his arms and fiddle with the necklace laying on my chest.

Nash suddenly looks down to me where I was still playing with the necklace, and he spoke; "I love you."

I sat up from the pillow and looked at him. Suddenly, I smile and kiss him. "I love you too."

I woke up with Nash's hand on my face. He was calling my name and screaming for help.

"Nash, I'm okay." I sit up.

"What just happened?"

"I'm not sure. All I know is that me and you loved each other..." I grab my necklace and look inside of it. "I remember when you gave me this."

Nash looked up at me and hugged me. "I'm so glad this worked."

"Me too" I smiled and we went into the tent that was set up.

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Flashes. That's all I could see. Since the first time in the hospital, I have been getting strange flashes of my life before, or Nash. I see them all the time, in the least needed times. I was happy I was slowly gaining my memories but not like this. In my dreams I see the accident happen over and over. It terrifies me because I don't know if it'll happen again.

As I sit here, slowly falling asleep, I think about everything I can remember. I also run my fingers across my scars. I think hard about it and I closed my eyes and begin to see the pain. I see me crying every night over how ugly and worthless I am. I see my younger self running away from the bullies who are calling me names. I wish I wouldn't have remembered this part of my life, it only makes it worse...

-

Third person

Julianne and Nash hung out as much as they could. Memories came slowly but she was happy to get them back.

Today Nash just wanted to hang out with her, just to take a break. He knew she was going through a lot of stress with her family, the hospital, and her old friends.

He brought her to an old restaurant that was very popular. They served hamburgers and hotdogs mainly. They sat and ate, talking about anything they would think of. They didn't care, they just wanted to be with each other.

They walked along the pond in the park with their fingers intertwined.

"I love you" Nash bursts, "I love you now, and I always will."

Julianne smiled back not knowing what to say. She can't remember if she loved him or not. She only knew that she was really into him.

Nash brings her underneath a tree that is shading the ground below it. "This is my favorite place to go" Nash says, "Want to know why?" Julianne nods.

"It makes me think of you.." He smiles.

"How?"

"Because it's beautiful, just like you." He grabs her cheeks and touches his lips to hers.

Suddenly Julianne falls to the ground. Nash panics and began to give her mouth-to-mouth.

Unexpectedly, She leads up and smiles bigger than anyone has ever smiled.

"Nash..." She says with much joy, "I remember. I do love you, and I always will."