suicide attempt // nash grier

fourteen

this chapter is dedicated to a-l-l-y-n ily
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Nash's POV
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"What did I do! I should've pushed her off of me!" I yell to myself while pacing across the room.

"Shit!" I throw myself into my black desk. I throw my head back and begin crying even harder.

"Stop crying, stop crying." I run my fingers through my hair and close my eyes.

I run into Matthew's room and run into his arms. I needed someone to stop me: I needed someone to stop me from doing what I've not done in a year. "Help me." I cry. He grabs my arm and hugs me tighter

"It's going to be alright. Go to her house and try to explain everything again." Matthew says trying to comfort me.

"Okay." I sniffle.
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I get to Julianne's house and I knock on the door continuously not hearing noise from the house. I decide to call her and see where she is.

The phone rings five times then the phone call is ended. I try again and again until someone finally answers.
"Hello?" I say into the small phone.
"Nash..." A familiar voice says. "Will you come to the hospital as soon as possible?"

"Yea-Yeah." I stutter scared to know what has happened.

I run home to tell Mike and Sarah where I'm going. Matthew and Cameron meet me at the hospital and walk in by my side. "The Smiths please."

"Yes sir. Room 209" The woman smiles at me.

I quickly run up stairs and get to the hallway that has a sign saying "Rooms 200-210"

I walk through the hallway looking for room 209. I finally reach it to see Julianne's parents standing in the window. "Nash." Her mother says to me.

It's her; My beautiful girl. She's broken, hurt.

it's all my fault

"Is she okay?" I stutter. Her parents look at each other with fright. "We aren't sure yet, all we know is that she has severe brain damage."

I drop down to my knees and grab her small hand.

"I don't know if you can hear me but I'm so sorry Julie. I fucked up real bad and I can't change it now." I wiped my tears that were now flowing like a river from my eyes. "You're the only real friend that I know and love. You've never left my side and you have stuck up for me all year. You helped me fight and now it's time I help you fight.You can get through this. You CAN get better, it just takes time. I love you Julianne Smith. Forever and always." I lightly smile and tighten my grip on her hand.

"I love you." I hear a cracky voice say. I look up to see Julianne looking at me with tears in her beautiful eyes and a bandage wrapped around her head.
Suddenly the machine that she was connected to started beeping faster and faster. The doctor and a few nurses and running in yelling at each other. It was all happening so quick. My eyes started to blur and I began to get dizzy. "Would you please leave?" A doctor asked me very angrily. He must've asked me several times before I actually heard him. "Sorry." I say weak. I stumble out of the crowded room and lay down on the cold floor.

"It's all my fault." I yell grabbing my hair and hitting my head on the wall several times.
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quick update! I'll probably update again soon since there is a cliffhanger kinda