suicide attempt // nash grier

four

happy chapter! I left some stuff out from the last chapter so double post. (:

*Nash's POV*

What am I going to do, I can't do this. I can't live without my mom! She was my mom for goodness sake! She took care of me, she loved me, she... she was my favorite person In the world.

I couldn't do it, I couldn't. I have to cut. I went to check my phone and I see that Cameron has called 8 times and left 4 voice mails. I listened to the first one and it said "Nash don't do it, don't give in. You're stronger than that. I love you Nash." The second one said "Nash, answer the damn phone. I need to know you're okay." I listened to the last one and it said "Nash I'm coming over. You better not be dead. I love you buddy."

Shit, I can't do it now. I put my razor back in it's drawer and wiped my tears. I heard a knock at my door, then saw cam in my mirror. I turned around and hugged cameron tighter than I've ever hugged anyone.

"Thank you for not being dead." He chuckled while sniffing.

"So who are you going to be staying with?" Cameron asked.

"Some couple named Mike and Sarah Espinosa." I said trying to remember that name.

"Espinosa?" Cameron said.

"Yeah, why?"

"That's Matthews last name, that new kid."

"Oh yeah!" I got excited, really excited. I have someone my age I can stay with.

-

Cameron left and I started packing. I got everything I needed from my room. When I get to my razors I think, I think about the new family. What if they find them? I called Cameron.

"Cameron, don't say anything, I just need to tell you something. Okay so I was packing and I grabbed my razors out my drawer and I don't know what to do. I need them but I don't want my new family to find them. I think I'm going to try to stop. I'm going to flush my razors and my pills and try to start over." I spill.

"I'm so happy Nash, I've been waiting for so long to hear this. Good luck at your new home!" Cameron said fast and hung up.

I threw my phone on my bed, went to the bathroom and flushed them. All 5 razors, and all of my pills. I felt good about this, but at the same time, I was upset. They're my escape from the real world. They make me happy when I'm not okay.

-

today was the day. I'm moving, I'm moving into a complete strangers house. Hopefully this goes good.

I walk into the new house and immediately get tackled with hugs. I get shown to my room my Mrs. Sarah. She was really sweet.

My room was huge. It had one of those circle window seats, hardwood floors, and my own bathroom! It was everything I've ever wanted! Right when I walked in I pictured how I want it done. White walls, black comforter, red curtains, and lights above my bed. I loved the house so far.

I begin unpacking my stuff when I hear a knock at the door. "come in" I say not bothering to look behind me. It was Mike.

"Hey Nash, do you like your room?" he smiled.

"I love it! Thank you so much!"

"You get to decorate however you'd like. we just have to paint the walls first, what color would you like?"

"White." I say smiling so big.

"Okay bud, dinner will be ready at 6." he walked out of the room.

-

//dinner//

I hear several forks clinking to the others plates while they eat but I continue eating with the obnoxious noises. They cooked chicken and rice, it was different from the normal Steak and mash potatoes.

We all laugh at eachother and continue eating our tasty dinner.

I looked up and smiled at the laughing family and I think to myself: I'm going to be happy with this family.