It's Just You, Me And The Loading Screen

The Heartbreak

I quickly grabbed my purse and dug through it trying to find my make-up, I knew I was being ridiculous, worrying how I looked but I couldn't help but hope that when I got back to Sweden, Felix and I would be together again. I had spent these last few years trying to get over him because of the distance but now there was a chance for us again. I touched up my make-up quickly and signed into my Skype account, I seen Felix was on-line and I clicked to call him.

"Hello" Just hearing his voice made me smile, we both turned on our webcams, and there he was, smiling back at me, making my heart melt.

"Felix! Oh my god it's so good to see you" He looked amazing.

"I know, it's good to see you too. It's been way too long since we last talked, I've missed you"

"I've missed you too" There was a brief silence as we both just looked at each other through our computers.

"So what have you been doing lately?"

"Not a lot, either working or at Uni, what about you?"

"Filming, always Filming, but I love it. I actually quit studying so I could focus more on Youtube"

"Holy crap! Really?" I knew he was getting popular on Youtube but I didn't expect that.

'Yeah, filming is actually like my job now, it's great"

"I'm so happy for you" I truly was happy for him, being able to do what he loves and make a living out of it, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life, I loved playing video games with Felix when we dated, and watching his Youtube channel reminded me of all the time we spent squished together on his bed playing on the TV in his room.

"So what's the news you have for me?"

"Oh yeah, so I met this girl a few months ago, her name's Marzia and she's from Italy. We've been talking over the internet and I even went to visit her a few times and... well, she's my girlfriend!"

My heart felt like it was falling to pieces, I tried not to show the pain, all I wanted to do was cry, it was so stupid of me to let my feelings for Felix resurface after it took me so long to get over him in the first place. Why did I let myself believe we could be together again?

"Oh..That's so great" He could tell I wasn't being sincere, but that's all I could manage while I forced the lump in my throat to go away. Felix didn't get a chance to comment on my lack of enthusiasm over his new relationship, before either of us could say anything a girl that I presumed to be Marzia stepped in frame, bending down so the webcam could reach her face.

She was beautiful, and I instantly felt total jealous rage boiling inside me, I had no real reason to hate this girl but I couldn't stop myself from feeling that way.

"Hi, I am Marzia, It's nice to meet you" Her voice was so ridiculously cute and high pitched, with an obvious Italian accent, everything about her made me insecure.

"It's great to meet you too, I'm happy for you guys" I saw Felix looking at me as I spoke to Marzia, he knew I wasn't being honest but looked confused as to why.

"Umm, I'm feeling a little unwell, I'm gunna go now. I'll talk to you guys later" I went to sign out.

"Wait! You're still coming back to Sweden, aren't you?"

"Yeah, in about a month" Right now I didn't want to go anywhere, just curl up in my bed an never get out again.

"Ok, see you then"

I logged off and closed my laptop, feeling completely miserable and stupid, I sat there on the couch for a while replaying what had just happened in my mind, I had been an idiot but I had gotten over Felix once and I can do it again. I forced myself off the couch and into the bathroom, deciding I would just shower then go to bed, and try to forget the conversation I just had.