It's Just You, Me And The Loading Screen

The Beginning

That was the first time that I met Felix, I was sixteen and he was seventeen, after that day we spent more and more time together, I loved the way he could make me smile and laugh, and how he was always happy. Every time I saw him I realized something else to love about him, his smile, his eyes, the way he brushed his blond hair to the side. A month after we met he finally got the courage to ask me on a date, at the time I was shocked, I knew I had feelings for him but I never expected him to be interested in me. We had our first kiss that night, in the back row of the cinema while the credits to 'X-Men: The Last Stand' rolled on screen.

But that was years ago now, I sighed sadly, wishing things had gone differently for us. We broke up when I moved to Australia, not because either of us wanted to but because we knew it would be almost impossible to have a long-distance relationship. The first year after I left was the hardest, it was difficult for me to fit into a new school in a new country when all I really want was for Felix to hold me and make all my worries disappear. We messaged and video called, mostly just saying how much we missed each other but soon the distance between us was noticeable, e-mails became shorter, video calls became rarer. Eventually I tucked my love for Felix away deep in my heart and moved on with my life.

It had been two years since I left Sweden, I was twenty, I part-time studied at the University of New England while working as a waitress at a friendly little cafe. I wasn't really enjoying my studies, I only went to make my parents proud of me, but it was close to the end of the year now and I was taking next semester off to travel back to Sweden. I was finally going to see Anna-Lea after all these years, I was so excited to go back to my home country and see everyone that I missed so much, and to see Felix again. I had dated a few guys but nothing ever lasted very long, none of them could make me as happy as when I was with Felix.

I finally arrived home, after a fifteen minute bus ride, to my small apartment that I rented with a girl named Rachel, we got along well but weren't close. Rachel wasn't home and I was thankful for the privacy, it had been a long day at work. I kicked off my shoes and headed to the couch, grabbing my laptop from the coffee table and flipping it open, I checked Facebook, one notification form Anna-Lea. She had posted on my wall:

'Only just over a month until you're back in Sweden!!! I can't wait xo'

I smiled at her post, I was leaving just before Christmas to spend a year with Anna, she had her own apartment in Gothenburg that I was going to move into, we had been planing this since the start of the year. I typed a quick comment to her post about how excited and nervous I am and was about to log out when a PM popped up, it was Felix. My heart skipped a beat as I clicked to open his message.

Hey Ally, I have some exciting news :D I'll video call you

Now my heart was racing.