It's Just You, Me And The Loading Screen

The Fight

One empty bottle of vodka later we where all a little tipsy and I was much more relaxed, we had been lounging around on Felix's couches, listening to music and talking about all the crazy and stupid times we used to have together. Anna was sitting on the only single couch, making me and Felix sit together on the double. Felix got up to use the bathroom and I took my chance to bust Anna with her ridiculous scheme that I had figured out.

"I know what you're up to"

"I have no idea what you're talking about" She played innocent but had that wide mischievous smile on her lips.

"You're trying to get me and Felix back together!" I whisper shouted, not wanting Felix to hear us over the music.

"What? Me? I would never do something like that" She said sarcastically, making it even more obvious that it had been her plan all along. I wasn't angry or annoyed at her, but I just didn't see the point of chasing after something that was already gone.

"He has a girlfriend.. anyway, it will never work, he's over me" It made me a little sad saying those words out loud.

"Yeah right" Anna rolled her eyes as Felix walked back in.

"What where you guys talking about?"

"I was just noticing that we are out of alcohol, and then I remembered that I have another bottle in the fridge, I'll go grab it" Anna seemed pleased with herself, once again successfully leaving me and Felix alone together. I watched her as she skipped out the door, despite her evil scheme she still made me laugh.

"She's so weird tonight"

"Yeah, I noticed"

Felix went to sit back down next to me, until the next song started playing. We both recognized it right away, 'Starlight' by Muse, it had been one of our favorite songs when we dated. I couldn't help but look into his eyes, we stared at each other for a moment, the music brought a flood of memories back to me.

"Dance with me?" Felix waited with his hand extended to me, he was smiling, I felt powerless to resist him when he smiled like that. I reached out to grab his hand and he pulled me up to my feet and close against his body, I wrapped my arms around his neck and he placed his hands on my hips. We didn't really dance, just kind of swayed together to the music. I rested my head on his chest, enjoying this moment, but nothing that felt this good ever lasted long.

"I wish you never had left" Felix whispered.

My heart cringed with pain and suddenly I was filled with anger, I was angry at Felix, angery at myself, angry at Marzia.

"It doesn't seem like it" I instantly regretted saying such bitter words to him. He pulled away from me, trying to look at my face but I turned away, avoiding his eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"Nothing, just forget I said anything" I tried to walk away but Felix grabbed me, holding on to my arm with one hand and using the other to hold my chin so that I couldn't turn away again.

"Of coarse I didn't want you to leave, I loved you Allysyn"

"But you don't love me anymore"

"I.. What? We broke up when you left, what was I meant to do?!" He was shouting now, completely letting go of me.

"I said I would come back, and here I am, I came back for you!"

"How was I meant to know you would actually come back? You where on the other side of the world, I'm sorry!" He took a deep breath in and continued, this time his voice was almost a whisper again.

"I'm sorry, if I had of known, I would of waited... I didn't know how long it would take before I seen you again or if I ever would and then by the time I found out that you where coming back I was already with Marzia" He took a step toward me, moving some of my hair that had fallen over my face.

"I'm sorry too Felix" I wish I hadn't made him look so sad. I stepped closer to him and looked into his eyes, wanting to kiss him. He tilted his head toward mine, looking at my lips and then back to my face, he moved closer to me, until I could feel his warm breath, I closed my eyes waiting for his lips to be on mine.

Anna burst back in through the door and the two of us jumped apart, I don't know if she was just pretending not to see us or if she really hadn't but Felix and I played along as if nothing happened.

"So, who wants another drink" Anna raised the vodka bottle as though it where a trophy. I was going to need a lot more alcohol then that to get Felix off my mind now.