Love doesn't last [Jeno]

51. Your Book

But haven’t I caused enough pain for one guy? I can't keep running and hiding. I need to tell the truth and Jeno deserves to know it.

“Hey Y/n” he spoke from behind but I didn’t see his cute smile. Was he prepared for a rough answer from me? Jeno’s eyes were gleaming while mine was filled up with water. One tear pushed its way through and I threw it away immediately.

“Hey Jeno, you already know why I asked you to come here” I murmured looking out to see the extraordinary view. The night sky was filled with stars shinning on their own. While two stars were lost.

“I know you asked me to come here to say that you don’t like me. I saw Mark in the hospital room when I came to see if you were fine” he spoke with his shaking voice trying to keep a smile out.

He already knew but kept the pain to himself. I could hear his heart beat slower. Was it even beating the way it used to?

“Jeno I do like you. You are an exceptional human and….” I didn’t get to say my last words. He chuckled as if his pain didn’t exist anymore. His tears left traces as they fell. Jeno kept a fake but realistic smile and talked with his voice shaking and his eyes filling up with pain.

“Y/n don’t feel pity for me by saying some kind words. I am an adult getting rejected is a part of life even though I have gone through that process more than once. I fell for someone I knew couldn’t get”. The lights were out and the street was shut down.

He didn’t let his smile go away, but mine faded away. One by one it leaked out. I didn’t feel pain in that way. My heart was stinging and my eyes were burning. Deep inside I knew what I did was wrong.

"The book of yours really have a twisted story and concept" Jeno said while laughing. He was laughing in the sea of sadness. Why did he do that? "Remember to place your real name this time" he said making me want him to stay. It was just something about Jeno that made me want to hold him with me forever

“I have a flight to catch Y/n. I hope your book becomes a hit and what's the title of your book?” he asked fixing his jacket. Ready to walk out of my life as if we never had anything going on.

I was the one who was going to let the pain go but now I don’t want it to go. I want Jeno to stay, but I knew either way one of us would end up without a heart. Why did we have to walk this path?

“My book title is Love doesn’t last”. Without a stop, my tears came out without my will. Suddenly his real smile came out and he moves closer to me. Inches away from my face.

My heart was beating so fast that it was louder than anything. “I will remember to read your book, I agree” he stated wiping away my tears.