I don't know if you've ever felt like something was so right, and yet you were too afraid of the intensity of your own feelings. Like falling in love could break you, and yet it was such a blissful feeling.
The day that you and Calum first made love was bittersweet, because as beautiful as it was, you knew that in a couple of hours he would be getting on a plane and flying thousands of kilometres away from you for six months, and there was nothing that you could do about it except say goodbye.
The two of you had been together for a year and had never slept together. That was what made it so beautiful. The fact that all the two of you had done in that year was talk and get to know each other and share a couple of kisses here and there, and yet you were both madly in love with each other.
That afternoon, you two wanted to spend the day together as far away as possible from civilisation. He showed up on your doorstep with a dozen white roses, a picnic basket and acoustic guitar. You couldn't help the smile on your face looking at how excited he was to be spending the day with you.
"Calum, where are you taking me?" You questioned as the two of you made the thirty minute drive to the field of flowers. Once you had arrived, you looked out your window and gasped at the beauty. It was nothing but a large field that had nothing else but a variety of flowers growing in all sorts of different colours.
"Beautiful, isn't it?" He whispered, and all you could do was nod. You both got out of the car, him holding the basket, blanket and his guitar all by himself because he refused your offer to help.
Calum can't cook, and so all that the two of you ate was cheese and ham sandwitches that his mother helped him prepare. You put your head in his lap and lay your back on the blanket as he played a couple of songs for you on the guitar.
"Can you please play Wherever You Are?" You requested, and he gladly did just that, then put the guitar aside and softly kissed your lips once he was done.
"I love you." He whispered.
"I love you." You said, looking directly into his eyes. He brushed his nose against yours before kissing your lips again, but only this time, the kiss was deeper.
"I want to make love to you." He said while caressing your cheek.
"I want you to." You admitted.
Without really knowing what had happened, you were now laying flat on the blanket, Calum now on top of you, kissing your neck slowly, making you feel things in between your thighs that you had never experienced before. You tugged on Calums shirt, and he allowed you to take it off. He watched as you ran your hands down his toned torso and back to his chest and around his neck, pulling him back to you. His hands roamed your body as the two of you shared a passionate kiss. He finally took off your shirt, but stopped as you were about to allow him to unzip your shorts.
"I don't have a condom." He muttered, and you felt a pang of disappointment. But at the same time, you were glad because it meant that he didn't know that the two of you were going to have sex. He didn't plan it.
"Its okay." You said finally, and he made a move to get off of you, but you stopped him. "Lets do it without a condom. We're both virgins so I know you don't have any STI's."
"Its not just about STI's. I don't want to get you pregnant and screw up your whole life."
"You can pull out before you release." You suggested, and he hesitated before you added, "Please, Cal. I wanna do this. I'm not going to see you for another six months. And it freaks me out that you could find someone better in that time."
"There is nobody else out there for me but you." He said sincerely. "Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked, searching your eyes.
"Make love to me, Calum."
There was none of the screaming and strange sounds that you usually read about or see in movies. It was painful in the beginning, but noting unbearable. He moved slowly, and kept asking if you were okay and if he should stop. But you wouldn't let him, and told him to keep going. Your eyes were locked on his for majority of the time and, as promised, he pulled out before he released.
That was the day that you realised the intensity of your feelings for Calum. You cried at the airport when he left, but he promised that he would be back for you. Even though you knew that he wasn't leaving for good, it felt good when he said that he would be back for you.
You loved Calum Hood more than anything else in the world. He was your first real kiss, and now he had taken the most precious thing. Your virginity. And you wouldn't ever want to change that.
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HI/HEY!
My goodness, its been a while! I'm actually supposed to be studying for my Biology test tomorrow, but I'm feeling all inspired so ...here's an update.
Okay so I would really appreciate it if you guys could please check out my new book Scars which is an Ashton Irwin FanFiction. I've only written like two chapters, but I promise you won't want to miss this one.
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And uh yeah, stay beautiful, smile and love yourselves.
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