Gone for days (complete)

Chapter Fourteen: Shattered Like Porcelain

Noelle's POV#######=======#######=======########=======##
Wow humans.
I just can't they disgust me.
When me and Jordan finally left the bathroom they had just started to serve the cake. The bride and groom cutting it. Then while Jason leaned down to Eat the cake Jess was supposed to give him she shoved his face into the cake and cackled.
Jordan was dying of laughter and so was I.
They wheeled out another cake.
Jason brought his face up. Covered in frosting and cake.
Everyone was laughing. And Jess handed him a napkin.
Then Jason threw her bended head down into the already destroyed cake and everyone laughed.
Jessica brought her head up and was laughing so hard she fell to her knees.
"Well come on lets go get some cake." Jordan took my hand.
We walked back to our seats.
"Why are you both like this?" Asked Lucy.
"What do you mean?" Jordan looked very confused.
"Well you both don't really act like a couple. I haven't seen you actually kiss yet." Lucy said.
"Lucy" Gretchen warned.
"I'm just saying." She said looking very amused as my expression didn't change. But I just said.
"I have social anxiety and don't really show affection in public thank you very much." I crossed my arms.
"Suuuuuurrrrrreeeeee" said Lucy
"Lucy" Growled Gretchen and Lucy stopped.
Cake arrived just in time. We all dug in. Presumably in a better mood.
Jess was away for most if the time so eventually Gretchen said "why don't you both go dance?"
I would have said no but then our song came on.
Smoking cigarettes on the roof
"I Can't dance very well." Jordan said not moving
"Well you better learn to because your coming with me." I grabbed her wrist and yanked her up out of her seat. Dashing towards the dance floor.
"You sure you want me to step on you in heels?" She teased.
"Oh come on." I said "I'll teach you" the only dance I really knew how to do was free style but I could waltz a little.
I put my hand on her hips and used my other hand to place her right hand on my shoulder. Then I grabbed her hand and lifted it into the air. Slowly we started to walk in a square.
We fell in live in October that's why I love fall.
I hummed along. Eventually I dropped our hands. Still holding hers. Eventually she let go and put her hand on my hip. And I out my hand on her shoulder.
"Fuck" she breathed. "don't look now but my family is staring."
I had to resist the urge to look.
"What are we gonna do?" I asked. My body tensing.
"Umm well if you were okay with it we could kiss? Of course only not your okay with it. Its ju-"
I cut her off with a light kiss on the lips.
She looked at me wide eyed. The leaned in for more.
I connected our lips. It was special. It was something out of the ordinary.
It was what I had wanted for the longest time.
Slowly I walked us over to a wall. I don't know why. It just seemed more private.
"Noelle." Jordan breathed.
"What is it?" I answered in the Same hushed tone.
"Nothing I just like your name" she smiled and then I kissed her again. One of my hands working their way up to her head while the other moved to her back. Pushing her closer to me.
One of her hands had found me jawline and was just sitting there.
The other stayed on my hip.
Slowly but surely the kiss grew more passionate. She never wanted to come up for air and neither did I. My hands slipped to her torso again and this time she pulled away. Wide eyed and terrified.
"Oh fuck Jordan I-" she sprinted away. Towards the bathroom and I could see the lock turning from here.
I was left alone. And I had just fucked things up with my best friend.
"Oh shit." I said running towards the doors. And out into the parking lot.
I needed to get back to my car. I needed to get out of here. I needed to breathe.
But I couldn't. I had just ruined everything with my best friend.
I ran to the edge of the parking lot not stopping there. Back tracking to the House we were staying in.
Its a good thing I had brought my purse and key to my car.
I unlocked Penelope yes I had named a car why wouldn't I?
And just sat inside. Bawling my eyes out.
Gasping for air but seemingly never getting any.
Fuck. How am I this stupid?

Your this stupid because you fell in love with your best friend. Your a fucking idiot. She hates you now.

But she kissed back.
She had kissed back.

Doesn't mean anything. Did you forget she has a BOYFRIEND?

Holy shit.
I had just kissed my best friend and to make it worse she was in a relationship.
This realization just made me cry harder. I crawled into the backseat and shriveled into a ball. I had known her for five fucking years she had a boyfriend and I just blew it up in both of our faces.
Crawling out of my car and standing up I climbed the chain link fence that led to the backyard. I opened the back door and stepped inside to see Miles holding a dead mouse in his teeth.
"Hey buddy." He put the mouse in my hand and I set it outside to rot.
he snuggled up with me.
Then my phone started ringing.

                                         Call from JE❤
I answered hoping I would get a second chance.

"Noelle? Hey I'm sorry for running off like that I had a bit of a panic attack. I couldn't keep you and my Ex-boyfriend straight and I just I'm so so sorry."
Ex boyfriend??
"what do you mean Ex boyfriend?" I asked.
"Umm well... When we first started dating he just kind of walked up to me and started kissing me without consent or me even remotely knowing him. He kind of well.." She breathed in." Raped me?? I don't really know. But it traumatized me. That's why I ran off. I'm sorry. I should have told you."
I'll kill him myself.
"Noelle where are you?"
"I'm back at the house. I just ran off."
"Noelle I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything about my family looking at us. I pressured you into it and I doubt they actually were suspicious."
"hey its alright i'll-" my voice cracked "I'll see you when you get back okay?"
Then I hung up.
I had indeed fucked up. I had brought back Trauma that Jordan didn't need on top of overstep my boundaries with the kiss. And then I also discovered that my best friend didn't even. I just. Oh fucking Hell I had just messed up big time.
I sat on the floor. I thought I had cryed my last tears for the day. But apparently my eyes had other ideas I cryed again. My head in my hands. Miles curled up next to me. Comforting me.
When everyone got back I had fallen asleep. They all looked st me and then Jordan walked in and rushed to my side.
"I'm so fucking sorry. " she whispered to me. crying. "I thought when you didn't pick up the phone again something had happened. Don't scare me like that again." Tears of relief and regret rolled down her face. "Holy shit don't scare me like that ever again." She said hugging me harder. And I hugged back crying.
"I'm sorry myself. I just. I always assume it about me. I didn't realize I had brought back trauma. I didn't mean to. I didn't wan to." I couldn't a giant sob escaped my lips." I'm so sorry." I said.
Everyone else had left the room.
"its okay. Were gonna be okay Noelle." She said.
"I God damn hope so."