It's My Spotlight

Chapter 7

1 Week Later

        I picked Brielle up from her father's house. When I showed up at his house, my usual feelings flooded over me. I felt as if that Sebastian and I were actually meant to be, but instead, he's just taking me through the ups and downs of life just to admit that he still loves me.  Apart of me knows that Sebastian loves me, but instead inside his fucked up head, he believed that he could just leave me behind.

        Once Sebastian opened the door, he and I made eye contact then he smiled. "Here so soon? We were just beginning to have fun.  I took her bowling for the first time." He grinned.

        Apart of me felt my heart sink.  I missed my daughter's first time bowling and it was with her father too. Although Sebastian and I weren't together, I missed my family unit. I missed all three of us being together having fun.  I missed going to the beach and Brielle would hold both of our hands as we walked about.

        I smiled cheerfully. "Did she have fun?"
        "Most definitely, she couldn't stop grinning from ear to ear." He looked truly happy.

        "Where's Angela?" I asked noticing that I didn't see any of her things or her for that matter. I noticed that her car wasn't in the driveway either.

        He sighed. "We broke up like two weeks ago." He admitted.

        I rolled my eyes. "What did you do?" I asked playfully.

        "Why do I always have to do something? Can't somebody fuck me over? I'm not that bad." He laughed.  He stepped aside from the door and let me inside. I invited myself to the couch then I got comfortable.

        "Can I get you anything?" He asked.

        I shook my head. "I'm fine. Tell me what happened." I was surprised that we were talking as if that argument the other week didn't take place.

        He sat down beside me for a moment and began thinking. "You know, your sister always had a messed up way of thinking." He began.

        I nodded my head agreeing heavily. "Tell me about it. You didn't grow up wit' her ass just for her to turn around me stab you in the back." I rolled my eyes thinking about my wedding day.

        "I know, I know. We were wrong for that, I already know what you're thinking. I fucked up when I did that. I hurt you more than I really intended to." He sighed.

        "You were intending on hurting me?" I questioned.

        "Not really, but I did intend on leaving you. We just didn't have that same spark that I was accustomed to, and this made me want to leave you.  I knew that if I was going to leave you, it was going to cut you deep, but I didn't want to do that to you.  I was really praying that you bounced back from the pain because I didn't want to hurt you, but you know, got to do what you got to do." He explained.

        I didn't want to stay on this subject any longer. "What happened, Sebastian?" I asked changing the subject.

        "We have our differences. Angela was the complete opposite of my type, but I still gave her the chance to be the woman for me. We came to the conclusion that our differences are too difficult to work through so we decided to call it quits. It was an equal agreement." He responded.

        "The woman for you probably could've been me. I was dedicated to you, Sebastian." I responded. Fuck it! I needed the closure. I didn't have the intentions of getting back with Sebastian. I wanted to make sure he knew exactly what he lucked himself out of.