It's My Spotlight

Chapter 19

Chapter 19:

I can't believe I believed, everything we had would last
So young and naive for me to think, she was from your past
Silly of me to dream of, one day having your kids
Love is so blind, it feels right when it's wrong

I can't believe I fell for your schemes, and I'm smarter than that
So young and naive to believe that with me, you're a changed man
Foolish of me to compete, when you cheat with loose women
It took me some time but now I moved on, cuz I realized I got

[Chorus: x 2]
Me myself and I, that's all I got in the end
That's what I found out, and it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on, I'm gonna be my own best friend

[Beyonce]
So controlling, you said that you love me, but you don't
Your family told me one day, I would see it on my own
Next thing I know I'm dealing, with your three kids in my home
I've been so blind, it feels right when it's wrong

Now that it's over, stop calling me, come pick up your clothes
No need to front like you're still with me, all your homies know
Even your very best friend, tried to warn me on the low
It took me some time, but now I am strong
Because I realized I got..

[Chorus: x 2]

I got me, myself and I (I know that I would never dissapoint myself)
Must have cried a thousand times
(all the ladies if you feel me, help me sing it out)
I can't regret time spent with you
(Yeah, you hurt me but I learned a lot the long way)
But I lucked out to make it through (after all the rain you see the sun come out again)

See that's why you in my life right now, smile right now..
I'm sorry, boo... I'm sorry..
Just you know, that you got mature... shoot..
Ya'll ladies keep your mouth shut right now
'Cause ya'll don't know what y'all talking about
This between me and her, that's my word, she just upset

Changes... we all go through changes
Arguments, disagreements, and to some it's dangerous
But your mind and your heart's clogged with all your pain and
But a bond that we was holding, what made us famous

Beyonce – Me, Myself and I

1 MONTH LATER

            Sebastian’s and Angela’s funerals were both sad, but I didn’t find myself crying again for either of them.  I kissed Brielle’s cheek once again.  “Mommy stop it.” She giggled.

            “Why?” I asked.

            “I know you love me. I love you too.” She smiled at me.

            I smiled back at her. My photoshoot for Simon Lion was released, and it made a huge impact. Of course everyone had something to say about my damn life, but I was trying to stay out of the public eye and focus on my daughter.  I was getting phone calls left and right asking for me to do photoshoots, but I wasn’t quite ready to be back in the spotlight once again.