I Promise You This Love Will Never Die (Frerard)

Chapter 5.

Chapter 5.

Gerard's PoV.

I turn my eyes occasionally from tv to Frank and Jamia, who have fallen asleep against each other on the other side of the bus. Most people would probably think they look cute, but for some reason I feel a bit envious somewhere inside of me while watching them. I want to be in Jamia's place. But instead I'm sitting next to Lindsey who is snuggling with me. I don't understand my feelings. I am happy with Lindsey and I love her, but still now that I saw Frank with Jamia, I suddenly became jealous and it bothers me. I'm getting married to Lindsey in a month, I shouldn't be jealous about Frank. Although I believe and deep in my mind know that Frank and Jamia are just friends, still I can't help my feelings. I don't even have any right to be jealous about Frank since I was the one that ended our relationship for Lindsey. Now I wonder if I made a mistake? How did I end up in this situation where I'm possibly in love with two people and I'm marrying one of those two? I really don't know. Somehow Lindsey got me falling in love with herself so badly that I ended things with Frank, even though it hurted me too. I was just thinking that I would get over Frank, but apparently I still haven't. And Lindsey has no idea of anything about this, which is probably a good thing. If she did, I might not have this band anymore or at least I wouldn't have Frank in it. Probably I couldn't even be friends with Frank anymore. Sometimes I've been thinking if I should tell Lindsey the truth about me and Frank, but then aforesaid things have come into my mind and I have just forgotten the idea.

I've been kinda rude to Jamia all day, actually I haven't even said almost any word to her, although this is not her fault. She hasn't done anything wrong with me, just made me feel a little uncomfortable by dragging Frank out of the closet. On the other hand, Frank has been a lot happier after Jamia showed up which has been nice. I haven't seen Frank this happy in a couple of years which has broken my heart everytime 'cause I know I can only blame myself. Who else? Maybe I should apologize for Jamia at some point? After all we're probably going to see each other in the future 'cause I know that they'll keep in touch with Frank from now on. I might even thank Jamia for cheering Frank up. Maybe. But at least apologize for my rude behaviour. I just don't know, when would be the right moment since Lindsey is snuggling all the time and Frank and Jamia are also together almost all the time. And now they're sleeping, so I don't even know if I'll have a chance to apologize.

"Oh... Frank and Jamia fell asleep", Mikey says and wakes me up from my thoughts. Apparently he's been watching friends so focused that he hasn't noticed them falling asleep or then he just wanted to start a conversation.

"Umm.. Yeah, I noticed", I mumble.

"Lindsey apparently fell asleep too", I say surprised when I glance at the woman next to me.

"I think you did too almost", Mikey says and grins.

"I just got stuck in my thoughts", I answer.

"Isn't it almost the same thing?" Mikey asks.

"Not exactly", I answer.

"That's why I said almost", Mikey points out.

"I guess so", I say.

"What are you thinking so hard?" Mikey asks.

"A little bit everything. I think you know what I'm thinking. At least almost", I answer. Mikey smiles shortly.

"At least I think I know", he says.

"Well then, why did you ask?" I ask. Mikey shrugs.

"This must be a boring friends episode since most of us fell asleep", he says and grins. I smile a little.