THE RUTHLESS WHO OWNS ME ✓

Chapter 8 [SPG]

"Aviana...why are you avoiding me?"

Natigil ako sa paglalakad ng magsalita ulit si Maddox. Mabigat ang paghinga na lumingon ako sa kaniya. I'm fighting my self to deal with him.

"I am not."

Sagot ko at agad na tumalikod. I'm on the verge of walking again when he held my hands and hold it tight.

"You can't fool me Aviana."

Bumaba ang balikat ko at muli siyang hinarap. Napaka gwapo talaga ng lalaking 'to. Para saakin siya na ang pinaka perpektong lalaki na nakilala ko. Though, he has imperfections but it makes him perfect. He can't the Maddox I'm in love with if he don't have those flaws.

"Okay fine, iniiwasan kita."

I hissed.

"And why?"

Naiinis ako sa kilay niyang tumaas talaga habang tinatanong saakin kung bakit ko siya iniiwasan. Teka Avi, bakit nga ba? Ah! Iniiwasan ko siya dahil nahulog na ako sa kaniya.

I'm not thinking of moving on because I can't. The hell with moving on, I'm living with Maddox for whoever's sake!

"Gusto ko lang." Iyon na lamang ang sinagot ko sa kaniya.

Kasi hindi ko pwedeng sabihin na gusto ko siya. Oh baka pwede kasi sa paraang 'yon baka pakawalan na niya ako? After all, he doesn't want to deal with woman who's after commitment and affection.

"O sige sasabihin ko ang totoo."

I said. Hindi ko alam kung tama ba 'to.

Can somebody tell me if I'm doing this right? Sasabihin ko ba o hindi?

Binawi ko muna ang kamay kong hawak hawak Maddox.

I crossed my arms and ready my self. It's now or never. Bahala na kung masama siya, bahala na kung ano ang mga ginawa niya saakin. I can't forgive them for killing my papa but I do understand them, they're hurt. I can forgive them for whatever they have done for me just I can still feel the security Maddox gave me. Just this once, can I choose what makes me happy?

Tama ba 'yon? Kaya mong kalimutan ang mga masasakit at kapalit noon ay malaya mong mamahalin ang mahal mo?

"Tell me Aviana, I don't have enough patience with me."

I looked at his eyes and say. "I like you Maddox."

Nakagat ko ang labi ko ng namutawi iyon sa bibig ko.

"I mean, I'm happy being with you. I don't know okay? Even if I know you have Victoria. I still feel something from you. Even if you have hurt me physically, mentally and emotionally, I still think you made me sane. You're my chaos yet you're my calmness. I think I'm going crazy but I'm not sure. I just know I like you—" I stopped from talking rapidly when Maddox push me to wall.

Napapikit ako ng tumama ang likod ko sa semento. And when I open my eyes, it was a mixed of emotion because for the first time since I came and enter the Sullivan's life, it's my first time seeing Maddox's smile and it's so genuine. He looks even handsome. He looks better.

Wala pang ilang minuto ay naramdaman ko nalang at dila ni Maddox sa labas ng bibig ko. It is so soft and wet. It is warm. Natuod na yata ako sa kinatatayuan ko at hindi ako makatugon. But Maddox bite my lips that made me groan in pain and bliss.

I opened my mouth and there our toungue battled.

I encircled my hand around his neck and pull him closer to me. I even encircled my legs around his waist and we kissed more hardly. I can taste how sweet his lips are and I don't know it's driving me crazy.