𝙹𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝙴𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 || 𝙸𝚠𝚊𝙾𝚒

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November/22nd/2016

Hey, look who's back.

I just got back from practice, I wanted to stay later but Iwa-chan said I couldn't.

Speaking of which, this entry is actually about him.

Lately I've noticed something, he's been on my mind a lot, even more than volleyball. It's, weird?

Whenever we hangout, I can't take my eyes off him. It's strange. I know Iwa-chan's a true natural beauty, he always has been, and yet I didn't have this problem when we were younger? I didn't constantly think about him, wonder what he's up to when we're apart, feel the need to be with him.

I didn't always end up zoning out while taking in every little feature of his, I didn't always have my heart skip a beat when he smiled or god forbid when he laughs, such a beautiful, beautiful laugh.

I don't think I did.

And yet here I am, I can't help but be so fixated on every little thing about him. Fixated on the way he looks, the way he acts, the way he expresses himself, and so much more.

I love that he's got his own way of showing me he cares, and I love it even more on the odd days where he'll come to me when he's not feeling the best, it makes me feel really happy, like a little reminder that he really does trust me.

But does he feel what I feel?

Does he get fixated on me too? Does he get nervous whenever it's just us together? Does he feel all warm inside when I laugh or smile? Does he feel happy, or even special, knowing that I trust him?

I don't think I'll ever know if he does, but I hope so.

I'm not quite sure why I feel like this, I think I'll ask Mika-san later.

Until next time.

~Sincerely,
Tooru Oikawa