Thea

Distractions

Ezra's POV

Hearing her voice again broke me. That haunting scream that I hear in my nightmares has reappeared. The piercing scream of someone that I wasn't able to save.

This feeling was different though it was pure anger, no sadness, no other feeling besides being enraged. People could say it was me being numb, but I felt revenge scorching through my blood. I felt numbness before because of Tiffin, and I'm not going back into that hell hole.

I had my head down and I lifted it up with blackness in my eyes. Thea walked over to me holding out her hands. I looked at her and she saw me in a different light. She almost looked scared of me. I couldn't think of her right now, she was a distraction to what I needed to do.

"Ezra, are you okay?" Thea said to me with love in her eyes.

She has love in her eyes, while I have hatred. I just hope she knows that it wasn't hatred for her.

"Let's go Xavier, I need to talk to my father." I look over at Xavier and he is already up.

"Well, I can come with you." Thea said, grabbing my wrist. I yanked my hand from out of her grip and continued to walk.

"Ezra, stop, let me help." She called out to me. "I don't need your help Thea. You are just a distraction and that is what you have been this whole relationship, Tiffin would have already  died if you didn't come into my life. We don't need your help anymore." I yelled out to Thea.

"You don't mean that, Ezra. just let me help you please." She said in a whisper looking at me with tears in her eyes.

I wanted to reach out to her, but my feeling of revenge was stronger than anything. I looked her in the eyes trying to tell her in some way that I am sorry.

"How can you tell me that you fucking love me, and then call me a mistake the next second. Don't run away Ezra." Thea screamed at me with tears in her eyes, but she had anger in her tone.

I turned around and went out the door.

Xavier and I used the car that they came in and headed to wear my father was staying in. I already knew that he was going to be all types of fucked because today was the day that my mother died. I wasn't planning on seeing him because every year he says some shitty things to me that fuck me up. I had to see him though because I needed to inform him on Tiffin.

I speed my way through traffic and soon enough we are pulling into my fathers house. "Don't push her out." Xavier said to me as we came to a stop.

"You and I both saw the way that Thea looked at you. That girl has nothing but love for you, and you can't let that slip. Don't let Tiffin take something else from you. Don't let him win you and Thea's relationship." Xavier said to me.

"I could say the same to you. Why would you come with me and just leave. Did you even give Ana an explanation." I asked him. "I looked at her and said I love you before leaving. I looked at my family making sure that they knew that I wasn't going to turn on them. All those people that we just left have been there for us whether you want to admit it or not. They may not be blood, but you and I both know that family is more than that. You left that room acting like you didn't know any of them. You had darkness in your eyes Ezra. I saw that look before and It was a time that you and I both don't like to remember. You called Thea a fucking distraction, and she deserves way more than that. Don't turn into someone you're not over someone that already took enough from you. Your mom wouldn't want this Ezra." Xavier said to me

"Yes I love Thea with my whole fucking heart, but I always fuck things up and she doesn't deserve to get hurt. Please, don't fucking tell me what my mom would want. My mom would want to be alive, but she isn't because I was fucking late. I am going to kill Tiffin whether you like it or not. I don't need your help or Thea's." I say getting out of the car. I slam the car door and head to the front steps of the house. Xavier follows slowly behind me.