Thea

Beauty Scars

WARNING- *speaking about self-harm*

Thea's POV

I slightly opened my eyes and saw that I was still laying on Ezra. We both must have fallen asleep, but due to his zero movement and calm breathing, I realized that he was still sleeping while I was very much awake.

With his arm still around me after my recent panic attack, I was nervous to move and disturb him. So instead I decided to just observe him, it's not as creepy as I'm making it sound.

It was nice to see him calm and peaceful for once. He was always so tense and on-guard of everyone around him.

As my hand is still in his I see that there is a long scar going up his arm. It went all the way up to his mid arm. There was multiple scars decorating his arms.

As I observed them further I realized that the scars along his arms were self-inflicted.

I was far too familiar with these from the past of Anastasia. Before my father took her in she was in a really bad place. She was abused by men in her foster home, and she didn't know how to deal with it so it resulted in her cutting. She has come so far from those days, but I know that it still hurts her to see what she used to do to herself.

I try to remind her though that her scars are not something to be ashamed of. I think her scars make her beautiful with so much life.

Observing his scars, I wish that I could just take all of his pain away. I didn't know him and his past, but I knew that he deserved to live. He was worth fighting for.

I was longing to touch the scars and to touch him, thinking that maybe touching them I could take some of his pain away. I was about to reach my hand out, but I stopped myself because I knew that sometimes talking about your scars could bring back unwanted memories.

I was just about to get out of his grip, but then he shuttered and squeezed my hand tighter.

"Please don't leave me Mom, please I'm sorry " Ezra says under his breath. He was having a nightmare. He began to shake and whimper in his sleep.

"Ezra wake up" I say trying to wake him up from his bad dream. With a sudden jolt Ezra was awake. He woke up shaky and could barely catch his breath. I went to grab his hand to comfort him, but instead he stood up and denied me.

"I don't need your fucking help, Thea!" Ezra screams at me. I look at him shocked. I was just trying to help.

He looked at me with a sad and empty face. He stared at me one last time while a tear escaped his hazel eyes, and then he was off into the bedroom in the back of the plane.

What happened to his mom?

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Amelio announced over the speakers that we were going to be landing in one hour.

Ezra still hasn't come out of the bedroom. I understand that he was going through a hard time, but I didn't do anything besides try to help. There was no reason for him to cuss me out.

I couldn't mope around so I decided to make my way to the very tempting open bar. I poured myself a shot of Vodka. One turned into four shots. I had a little buzz and that is exactly what I needed for me to get through this night.

I went to further explore the plane and somehow my tipsy self ended up in the back room. I see Ezra on the end of the bed with his hands on his head. I continued my journey into the room. Ezra noticed my presence, and looked up at me.

I came closer to the bed and sat beside him.

"Look Thea, I'm not the best with apologies and shit, but I know that I shouldn't have raised my voice like that at you. I know you were just trying to help." Ezra said to me in a sheepish voice. I could tell by his face that he was actually genuinely sorry for his actions.

I started to play with my hands in my lap. " Thank you for apologizing. It was a pretty dick move to yell at me like that, but I understand." I say to him, causing a chuckle out of both of us. "Do you want to tell me what happened in the nightmare?" I asked Ezra awkwardly.

"No, it was nothing too serious, don't worry about it. I have something for you though." Ezra said to me. I could tell he was trying to avoid the question, but I wasn't trying to push it.

"What do you have for me?" I asked cautiously. "Follow me, back here" Ezra says while getting off of the bed. I decided to follow him, "You aren't going to pull a knife out on me or anything right" I asked Ezra in front of me. "No, don't worry, not yet" Ezra said.

He took me to his closet and opened the doors. I looked around for a while at his gigantic walk in closet, and came across a beautiful dress. "Please tell me that this is what you got me" I say looking back at Ezra with a huge smile on my face.

"Yeah I thought that you might like it, plus I may have lied a little bit about the gathering that we are having tonight" Ezra said. "What do you mean?" I asked skeptically. "Well it may or may not be a worldwide mafia ball that we are going to." Ezra said to me. My smile quickly fell.

"What the fuck Ezra, you could have told me." I started to pace around the room. I hate big things because big things means lots of people, and lots of people means major panic attacks.

"Listen, Thea don't worry. I promise It will be fine." Ezra said to me reassuringly. "I appreciate you trying to calm me down, but you don't understand. I kind of hate people and I loathe paparazzi." I said to him while still pacing around.

I couldn't focus, until Ezra grabbed my face gently and made me stop pacing around. He made me only focus on him. The only thing that I could focus on now was his hazel eyes staring into me.

"Thea, calm down love. I promise that I will not leave your side tonight. No one else, just you and I. Is that okay with you?" Ezra said to me with a slight smirk on his face.

"Yes, that's fine" I said to him while we were still holding strong eye contact.

It wasn't awkward though, I felt safe in his arms.

Well that's a new feeling.

He brushed the side of my face with his lips and whispered into my ear, "With that dress on I'm never letting you leave my side."

I could feel his breath on me and it made me close my eyes in pleasure. I opened my eyes and I was face to face with his mischievous smile. He knows what he does to me, and I fucking hate him for having that power over me.

Amelio came on the speakers and it brought us both back into reality. "Ms.Valerio and Mr.Angel we are going to be landing in thirty five minutes"

I already knew that my cheeks were a little red.

"I'm going to go and change. We are leaving to go straight to the museum where the ball is being held at. If you need anything else just let me know, okay.  " Ezra said to me before leaving the room with a slight smile knowing what he just did to me.

Wow, he's just going to leave me in here hot and bothered.

What the fuck is he doing to me?

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Hi guys sorry this chapter was a little on the shorter side, but since I have a long weekend I'm planning on updating more.

Let me know If I should still continue writing this story because I feel like I am not getting a lot of reads. For the people that are here though, I appreciate and love you guys.

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