LOST

Chapter 24. Lost

She is broken, life broke him but see the irony, it is only them who can heal each other. Only they both make each other feel loved and protected.

They both have lost something in their lives, but now, their souls will complete each other.

~♥~

" I hate you " I mumbled against his chest, wrapping my arms around him.

I heard him chuckle and held me tighter, I snuggled more closer to him. Those damn tears fell freely on his chest and this time, I did not control them. I did not wanted to.

" and I love you too" he said, stroking my hair.

I frowned and looked up from my tear stricken face, he was smiling softly at me. My heart pace quickened, signing quietly, I gripped his palm in my hand.

" but I said I hate you "

His eyes softened, caressing my hair, he leaned closer and whispered, " And even I said that I love you too" his nose brushed against my forehead and I closed my eyes to feel him, I sniffled as he stroked my cheeks.

" Let me hate you... Please.... I want to hate you so bad. Let me." I whimpered and bit my lips to not cry out loud.

That was the worst fear I had, falling miserable in front of someone and give them a chance to judge me for my past.

" And why do you want to hate me? " He said, caging me in his arms.

I stared in his eyes, for a moment I felt I saw something different in them, like a different sort of emotion but it was again filled with care. For sure, his eyes were like a mirror to his soul. I had heard this phrase thousands of times but never found someone who actually has such expressive eyes but he does.

Ashton does.

"I can't stand loving once again. This time, not only my soul but my body will die too. I am not that strong to love someone once again." I whispered, choking on my tears.

I could feel those tears in corner of his eyes which were threatening to fall, he then, softly pressed his lips on my forehead. I don't fight or move away so he allows his lips to linger.

I sighed, I was exhausted from fighting with my heart....

Trying to hate him was exhausting.

Fighting from heart was exhausting.

He leaned down near my ear and I felt goosebumps rising on my skin. Breathing out, I dared to look into his eyes which were glossy and shining with love.

In that moment, I wanted to lose myself to him. He made me feel those whirling emotions of desire which resided deep inside me.

" I want to claim you as mine, I want to heal your soul and teach your heart to love again" he whispered, kissing my earlobes and I shuddered.

A lone drop of tear escaped from my eye and before it could fall, Ashton cought it in his palm. I gazed at him while he gazed at the tear drop as if it pained him.

Looking up at me with still that drop of tear in his hand, he said,

" I can't promise you, love, that it will the last time you shed tears but there is one thing that I promise you, Alaia. You will never be alone while you cry. Till the time I am alive, you will never find yourself alone while you are having a break down. I will sit beside you to console you or just let you cry. But I will be there "

I blinked back that another tear before it could escape my eye and gazed at him with slight fear.

I was afraid. I was afraid of the promises made. No one kept the promise when they said they will stay by my side. Ashton just knew what to utter at the right and wrong moment and just now, he was uttering just the wrong thing which was fluttering my heart.