Royal Love |Iwaoi, Kuroken, Bokuaka, Tsukiyama |

Chapter Twenty One: Your Feelings

POV: Oikawa Tooru

I pause.

"You're....you're a prince?"

"Technically, yes. I'm royal blood. But I let Akaashi take over. I realize now he had a huge burden back then. Becoming prince, but he wanted to. He let me be a guard."

"He said he knew you since you were like fifteen though, and that he knew very little about you, why'd he lie so much?"

"The deeper the lie, the harder it is to figure out the truth."

"Iwa... so you're seriously royal blood?"

"Yes, how many times do I have to tell you, jeez."

"I know, I'm just....stunned. Does anyone else know?"

"No. Not even Chizuru. She barely remembers me being prince but she was too young. Just my parents. Even Yamaguchi has no idea."

"Wow...."

I stare at him. He's really a prince.

"Why'd you tell me this?"

He hesitates.

"Bokuto asked Akaashi on his childhood. He didn't want to lie so he asked me if he could tell him. I figured I might as well tell you, in case Bokuto spills to you on accident. And not just that....ugh I hate to say it but you've grown on me."

"I know I have, I mean we did just kiss-"

"And that'll be the only time."

"Mmm I doubt that. I'm irresistible."

"More like irresponsible."

"What does that have to do with anything!"

"Anyways, don't tell anyone, got it."

"Of course. You trusted me with this very precious piece of information."

"Yeah, I did."

He stares at me a bit more. I give him a smile and his face lightens up.

"Iwa, would you like to spend the night in my room?"

Oh shit. I didn't think I'd ask. I mean I was thinking it but UGH me and my loud mouth.

"Huh? Do you really want me to?"

"Well um- I'm-"

"That's not an answer Loserkawa."

"Well now I don't."

"Okay."

He turns away and gets off the bed.

"Hey wait I was kidding! Um, please come back."

He stares at the door.

"One night. I'll be right back."

With that he walks out. One night huh? How's he so perfect? It's probably that royal blood, but Akaashi is also kinda perfect and he's not technically royalty.

Wait... does that mean that me and Iwa can....

Iwa knocks on the door and opens it holding a pillow. He changed into pajamas and looked like he was gonna head to sleep already.

"Don't make me regret this, Shittykawa."

"Hey! How could you regret anything with me?"

"Oh trust me, I can."

I sigh and slide over and he lays down on the bed.

"You tired already?"

"Mmm, yeah. Night 'kawa."

"Ah... night."

I stare at him as he sleeps, not weirdly but it was more I was spaced out thinking then staring at him.

"I can feel your eyes on me, what is it?"

He turns over and looks at me.

"Um... well it's just, what would happen if we got together? I mean we're both royalty-"

"I'm not gonna mess with Akaashi's life anymore. Sorry."

"But-"

"Oikawa. I can't."

"You can! Akaashi has feelings for Bokuto! If you guys just switched places then-"

"That's not how it works! We can't just switch places! One of us could be banished from the palace, and it's most likely be him since he's not royal blood."

Banished?

"That's ridiculous."

"I know. Now drop it."

"But Iwa I-"

"Look, I owe Akaashi a lot. He took a job I was never willing to do. He took in the prince position. I owe him so much. I'm not gonna mess with his life again, I probably already ruined it by even having him become prince."

"I doubt that."

He stares at me.

"I genuinely doubt that Iwaizumi. He looks happy. I'm sure if you guys didn't take him in he'd be on the streets. He has a lot to thank you for and knowing him, he knows it. But you can't assume you're ruining his life. Plus, what if he wants to switch, Iwa, would you agree?"

He stays silent and stares at the ceiling.

"I'm not sure. We'd loose a guard, Keiji would never be a guard. But I don't know if I could handle being prince. It seems like a lot of work and stress. Plus the only benefit would be you."

"But wouldn't it be worth it? We'd have a great relationship, and I'd help you with your duties, you could still be a guard as well, just with a title of a prince, you could be my guard."

"Ha, you're really something Oikawa. If it was such an issue why not just switch me and Bokuto. That way I'd be your guard and Bokuto would be Keiji's. It seems better."

"I'd still have to get married. I'm sure everyone would prefer I marry a girl but marrying a royal blood prince wouldn't be awful. But you're right, that's a way we could do it but... I don't want to loose Koutarou. Not after so many years."

"Then let's talk about this with Keiji and him. Keiji is smart, I'm sure he'd come up with a plan."

"Right..."

"What now Loserkawa?"

"It's just....would you be happy, being with me? I can't tell anymore. You make me so confused. First you say you could never like me and to forget about you then you ignore and dry text me or don't call me back. Then you show up and act like you're not happy to see me but then meet with me. Then you wanted me to kiss you and then spill your entire childhood to me but you still seem uninterested in me. I need to know your true feelings Iwaizumi."

"Ah. Right."

He goes silent again. I stare at him, I can feel tears starting to form. I'm nervous. Maybe he doesn't want to be with me after all.

He sits up and faces me.

"Oikawa, if you really want to be with me then you've got to understand that I'm not good at showing affection. I show it in my own way by being mean but in a way that I don't mean it. I was nervous at first. I really did want you to forget, but I knew I wouldn't be able to. I knew that you'd keep pushing me until you got your way. I enjoy talking with you but I really didn't want anything to advance. Ah look at me now, doing exactly what I didn't want to happen. Look, I do care about you, and I know I have feelings for you, but I hate showing it, so if you truly care and want a relationship with me, give me time, okay?"

I think I'm genuinely in love. I lean over and give him a hug. He jumped but eventually returned the hug.

"Take your time, I'll be with you every step of the way, Hajime."

"I'd like that, Tooru."