Who are U?

Thirty.

"Was Ashley a part of your life in any way?" I was sitting in his bed doing my hair and he was on his laptop. He didn't seem surprised that I brought that up out of nowhere, but he wasn't expecting it right now.

"Yeah, she was my ex. I'd say things ended sourly between us." I nod giving him space or the hint to continue, and he does. "She was one of my three exes and kind of my first love too, so I was pretty broken with our situation which she took for granted at the time and was only thinking about herself." His eyes were unfocused.

"And you seemed still affected by her from what I saw last time..." I spoke while wrapping my hair in a scarf. He looked at me with a little shock. "Like genuinely you looked upset just by seeing her, and maybe that's because you're still hurt or haven't moved on completely."

"What do you mean! I did move on. Of course, seeing her after a long time just brought up some memories and I reacted,  plus the fact that she wanted to meet for coffee so we could 'talk and apologize' got me riled up." I felt bad for assuming.

"I'm sorry, the assumption was based on what I observed." Then I went up to him and hugged him tight so I could be forgiven, though I didn't do anything to be apologetic about it.

"Dan, I don't care much about your past relationships as long as they don't affect me, us." He pulls away and looks me in the eyes.

For a moment we were just staring at each other I could tell there were so many things going on in his mind. He brushed my left cheek longingly and sighed. Then suddenly he pulls me in for a very intimate kiss. I felt as light as a feather, his hands on both sides of my face making me feel fragile to hold. He drags my body to him while he leans backwards, nothing rushed just our moment happening. I partially forgot what we were talking about, as he was fully lying on the bed and I was fully on top.

We pull apart out of breath, foreheads touching then he says, "I'm willing to do my best to protect our peace and keep us from being affected by anything. It's not a guarantee since life can be unexpected." Our eyes never broke apart since he started talking.

"I guess what I'm saying is that, don't worry yourself and as for Ashley I'm just annoyed as to why now she wants to talk. After she dumped me I was miserable not knowing the good she did me. Letting me out of our toxic relationship since I couldn't get out of it myself." While he talked I got myself comfortable on top of him and his hand lazily laid on my lower back.

"With my family situation, losing my brother and all, she was some sort of comfort to me." He kissed my nose, "It's all in the past and so far I was doing good without her." He smiled cockily and I laughed.

"And you did very well, continue that way so that this journey becomes your strength," I said proudly and for a second I thought I saw his eyes getting red and wet, but he blinked them off.

"Thanks, baby and now I have you making this journey much better."

"No no, even if we're not together, hopefully we last; but yeah even if we no longer are for each other, I want you to take care of yourself and your mental health. I'm serious." He hugged me to the point that my ribs were hurting.

Then I'm flipped. So fast I swear I didn't see what truly happened. Beneath him, his warmth caressed my entire body. His smile slowly disappeared leaving an expression that got my nerves tingling and my blood rushing. His eyes went down my neck, chest and the rest, slowly. His breathing was calm and controlled, while mine was barely stable, he ran his fingertips on my side and then smiled. The kind of smile that would give your clitoris a heartbeat. Under my shirt, he caresses my belly and I start squirming. I touch his forearm, lips parted trying to decipher what he's going to do next.