UNCAGED SOUL || Attack on Titan x Reader

Happy Is Her || Jean Kirstein

Pt. 1 - "Happy is Her" Mini-Series

content: manga spoiler for 139 onward, reincarnation!au

I wanna die now-- I just want to think that the ending is 139, no more...

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ༶•┈┈⛧┈〄┈⛧┈┈•༶ *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

"Will you marry me?"

You stopped putting up the blade on the scabbard when you heard the question from behind you. At this messed up moment, you never expected someone to make such a crucial proposition, not when in a few minutes from now you were ready to board the flying boat, ready to put your life on the line to save the world.

The question echoed at the back of your mind, and you were still debating whether it was a good thing to turn around and acknowledge the marriage proposal you received or not. You were not in a situation to think about something as petty as love, not when one of you probably couldn't make it out alive from this cruel war.

If the two of you were strolling around Trost like what you used to, you would not hesitate to face him. You could imagine yourself with your eyes shining under the bright sunlight, asking what he meant or if he was being serious or just wanted to tease you. And you knew, you would know the answer to his question.

"Don't joke around at a time like this, Jean."

But the circumstance you were in right now did not help you to let out the word that you wanted to say. There was no time to be a lovesick woman, there was no time to think about a future that was out of your reach. The thing that you needed to be focused on was for you to give everything you had to fight the founding titan.

You really hoped that he would drop the question and just let you go, because you knew your heart too well, and saying no to him was something that had been a struggle for you ever since the two of you were just stupid brats in the Cadet Corps.

"You know I will never joke about something as important as this."

No air could fill your lungs at this point, and you felt your legs wobble slightly from the earnest tone that he used. "Hey, just listen to me, okay? Turn around, face me at least if you want to say no. Rejection is something that I have been through my whole life anyway."

That was it, that was probably the reason why you didn't want to face him. You knew, you were there. Your eyes caught everything for the past years ever since you knew him, and you swore from the bottom of your heart that you would do anything if only he could look at you like how he saw the beautiful, multitalented ravenette that now was chatting with Armin.

He was not serious with the question, probably he was, but he would never be serious when it came to his own feelings. Him loving you? That was probably the stupidest, unhonest, delusional thing that ever crossed your mind. And you knew the reason why he threw that question at you instead of her.

Because as for now, she only had eyes on someone else, the same person that was trying to commit worldwide genocide, excluding Paradis, the same person that everyone was trying to take down with their blades and guns.

"Why do you want to marry me in the first place, Jean?" You tried as hard as you could not to let your voice waver, still not facing him as you didn't want to show how pitiful you looked right now. "You would never want to marry me. We fight every now and then, we bicker all the time—"

"Because you are the one who knows me best, that's why." He cut you off, perhaps still blinded by his own selfishness at this point. You should have known that he would never drop this off so easily, and you could only grit your teeth, not wanting to lash out. "You know me so well, no one else could understand me as much as you do. So please, I-I will love you—"