UNCAGED SOUL || Attack on Titan x Reader

To Stay With You || Erwin Smith

Pt. 5 of "All My Senses" Mini-Series

Cw: age-gap

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You despised wintertime.

It was when the temperature dropped, with snow covering the street that it endangered lots of people who walked on the road. You needed layer after layer to keep yourself warm, a hot chocolate even went cold in a matter of seconds most of the time. There were lots of things you disliked from this season,

But the worst of it all was the fact that you lost someone in this particular time of the year.

Sometimes you could see it in your dreams. How the golden strands turned red, those gaze that was always filled with love every time it laid on you had gone dull. His touch was cold, which was the one that got you startled when you held it that night. Not when for years that very hand guarded you with everything he had.

And the first few months after the last time you saw him were so rough. You felt your life slipping away from your grasp, parents knocking at your door only to see you cry, searching for him. That one love was — the breaking point.

You had all the finer things in life. Every time you parted your lips, your parents would serve you anything before you could ask for it. Whenever you felt down, your friends would take you somewhere to unwind. Yes, real friends, those who lots of people thought you wouldn't be able to have in this kind of environment you were born in.

It didn't matter though. All the money, smile, kind gratitude, fame. What was the point of it if you couldn't even have that greatest invention in the world?

Love. A romantic love that actually lasted. It was the only thing you wanted that you couldn't have for long. The dream that had been planted since you were kids whenever you saw your parents looked at each other with those loving gazes.

But you reached the certain peak where you thought you didn't need it anymore, tired of losing it over and over again. You believed your life was cursed. The deity had given you everything, a life a lot of people envied.

What was it for when misery kept following you anywhere you go?

You once heard a sentence about how the world broke your heart because someone better was already prepared for you. That was the only thing stopping you from going under, the mantra you recited each night when you were so close to giving up.

After last December though, you never thought you would try to push yourself again.

It was thanks to Erwin Smith in all his glory, the way his billowy shirt complimented him, the first three buttons were off to expose a tad bit of his skin. He wasn't human, no one could look that enchanting you were sure of that. Not at the first glance, but he was there to prove you wrong.

Not only his physical build, there was something in him that kept pulling you in. Maybe it was how he could take your breath away in a matter of seconds, how his striking gaze held yours as if he never wanted to look away, or his touch that imprinted on every inch of your skin. You were unsure how he did it, but,

One thing for sure — he could easily make you crave for love again.

Because when he was near, you felt secure. He made you feel like you could achieve anything, listening to your rambles about your projects and master program. Never once he cut you off, except for when you had doubts about the future and he shut you up by smashing his lips against yours. That would forever melt your heart.

When you thought you already gave up when it came to love, he knocked at your door, forcing it open as he took you away from the dark corner. He kidnapped you, pulling you from the melancholy state you were in, encouraging you to not stop.