come make me

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i immediately ran outside the hotel matapos kong i-suot yung jacket. after that conversation with yuan, i felt really worried for him.

if i don't listen to his explanations now then.. who knows what could happen if i ignore him more for a long time? baka mamaya, magsawa lang siya kakasuyo para lang pakinggan ko siya. sa huli, ako lang din yung masasaktan.

after sean, i promised myself to give all the love i can give to my next lover... na may natitira pa sa sarili ko. i promised to always listen.. to always care.

ito na jis oh.. next lover. you mean, trev.

mabilis akong naglakad para makarating ka agad sa dalampasigan. iniikot ko ang aking paningin. wala ng mga tao. the only thing you'll hear.. was the waves slamming back and forth.

my lips parted a bit when i finally saw who i'm looking for. a silhouette of a familiar man.. was sitting on the big rock. nakatanaw lang siya sa dagat.

tahimik akong naglakad papunta sa gawi niya. he prolly didn't notice me. nilalamon ng mga malakas na alon ang paghakbang ko palapit.

"hi," i softly mumbled as i sat beside him.

umawang ang labi niya nang lingunin niya ako. malakas ang hangin at malamig. bahagya kong kinuha ang ilang hibla ng buhok na tumatakip sa aking mukha saka ito iniipit sa likuran ng tenga. i faced him and slightly smiled.

"sorry.." sambit ko saka mas lumapit sa gawi niya. "sorry.. i ran away.."

he chuckled and it sounded bitter.

"it's fine.." trev stated. "siguro dahil tinakbuhan kita nung prom-"

"no!" agad kong tanggi kaya't napalingon siya sa akin. "p-partly.." pag-amin ko tuloy. "gusto ko lang kasing.. maramdaman mo yung naramdaman ko nun.. sorry.."

"sigurado naman ako.. naikwento na nila sayo kung bakit sobrang uhaw kong makakilala ng lalaking sobrang ideal para sa akin.." i awkwardly laughed. "remember the time.. sa mall? nakakahiya pero sinigaw ko yung pangalan ko nung nakatalikod ka. i was hoping to meet you again.. and it happened."

bahagyang umangat ang dulo ng labi niya. "i haven't told you why i did that thing... sa prom.. right?"

tumango ako sa kanya at malungkot na ngumiti. "i hate seeing someone running away from me.. takot na yata akong maiwanan. takbuhan.. lagi na lang."

he looked away.

"i made my ex boyfriend leave me because he impregnated another girl.." sabi ko. "my mom left me for another family and flew overseas.. my dad.. let's not talk about my family." bawi ko saka umiling.

"when i met you, i got to spend time with you. sa mga kaibigan natin.." i continued. "i never felt that fulfillment before. i felt so happy. sobra. pero parang nawala lahat nung.. sinasabi ko na sayo lahat ng nararamdaman ko tapos umalis ka naman."

the silence.. it never been so loud.. i heard him sigh.

"nung nakita mo akong sumakay sa sasakyan ni dorothy.." doon ako mas napatitig sa kanya. the girl's name... "she's my lola's caretaker."

lumambot ang tingin ko sa kanya nang sabihin niya iyon. sa huli ay nag iwas na lang din ako.

"i probably didn't get to tell you how i much i love my grandmother.." aniya. "she took care of me eversince.."

mas lumapit pa ako sa pwesto niya. nakatingin na lang siya sa kawalan at nakangiti doon habang ipinagpapatuloy ang sinasabi niya.

"dorothy is like.. an older sister to me." aniya pa. "nung prom, hindi ko napigilang tumakbo nung tinawagan niya ako gamit yung cellphone ni lola para sabihing nandoon siya sa labas nung venue."

i kept quiet. like what i promised, makikinig ako.

"she's ready to fetch me kasi.." he faced me.. sadness in his eyes. "inatake si lola."

i stopped myself from gasping. but i can't help but tear up..

"trev..." tawag ko sa kanya. my voice cracked, i was in the verge of crying. "w-where is she?"

he sadly smiled at me. "i'm sorry.." patuloy niya. "she was even planning na kilalanin ka.. the time that i was on my phone during the program, i sent her a selfie of us together."

tumungo ako sa kanya. naaalala ko..

my tears fell. i know what this feels like, how can i not notice him going through something like this?

"she said you look beautiful as ever." he continued. "syempre.. i agreed. number one fan mo kaya ako.. you know how much i love capturing moments of you.. with you.."

bago pa siya makapagpatuloy ay nilundag ko na siya ng yakap. his arms tightly wrapped around my waist.

"sorry.. sorry, i didn't know.." paulit-ulit akong nag-sorry sa kanya. kung alam ko lang.. i should've comforted him, i should've asked if he's okay.. pero hindi ko nagawa.

i felt his hands caressed my hair. "shh.." pag alo niya. "it's okay.. lola's in a better place now.."

jiersee, you should've done better... you should've made him feel better..

"it will never be your fault.. i know what your thinking.." sabi niya. "okay na.. i accepted it already.. what lola wants is for me to be happy.."

he's so mature. far from all the guys i've tried dating.. trev is something else. he's a gem.

"hush.." trev softly mumbled before placing a kiss on cheeks.. he kissed my tears.. isinunod niyang halikan ang noo ko at ang tungki ng ilong. "don't cry, missy.."

before i could even speak again, his lips brushed on mine.. napapikit ako. ganoon din siya.

it lasted for seconds. "i love you.." finally. i said it. naudlot noong prom, but i said it!

unti-unting pumorma ang ngiti sa labi niya.

"i love you.. i love you.. i love you.." he repeatedly said before showering my face with his kisses again. tears were still streaming down my face but his kisses somehow calmed me down.

he's definitely the one that i wished for..

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