Josie: Hydras Golden Weapon

Chapter 4

Ughhhh, guess what ladies and gents I woke up in...... ANOTHER BED STRAPPED DOWN. Not just any bed it neutralized my powers. Finally making it interesting. This time I actually woke up and had my eyes open. The first face I see was A smug winter soldier looking at me with so much disgust in his eyes I almost felt sorry for him. Feelings make you weak. He was hydra?

"Take a picture it'll last longer Bucko." He showed a flash of shock but kept his cool. "Josie is it? Hydras new improved pet." Acid was spit with the last word. If he's trying to insult me it's not working good try though. Then he speaks again "look you're obviously really special and they have done a number on you I can see. I was like you had my whole life ahead of me and they stole it from.."

I cut him off " Hydra didn't steal anything from me. Quit the sad boy act I can see right through it. This has been my life since I was 5 I did this to myself. It's my choice!" Why the hell did I just tell him that. I have never just blurted information. What the hell. He smiles " So I see the truth serum is taking effect, good. Now answer my questions fully. How did hydra give you powers?"

I hesitated I can't say, I won't say. He speaks again "tough one." He injects more. I wince in pain at the 8-inch needle now injecting its crystal white devil serum in my neck. "I did this to myself." I finally blurt. Fuck. I can't say anything why can't I fight this.

Bucky frowns "what do you mean you did this to yourself? Hydra captures people and forces them into the life of an assassin. Why would you be different?" Just then some weird guy with glasses walks in. " oh umm I'm sorry Tony said she was knocked out I was going to run some tests." The winter soldier gets a little upset and I wonder what it's like to feel so many emotions besides murder.

"Well, Bruce obviously I'm busy. Come back later!" The guy Bruce runs out of the room. He stares into my eyes. I start to feel this weird feeling like my stomach is in... In... Knots?! Like what.. can he stop looking at me. As if on cue I blurt " at 5 I took vials and became a monster. I killed my parents and joined hydra willingly. I serve hydra only and will never go against my... my... family!" Wait did I just say family weird.

"Fascinating. You're so stupid. You willingly support a group that took your life from you. Now you're life's just a comedy. You can be so much more than a weapon. You could be good. You can help people. Instead, you're wasting your life being a useless puppet for morons." I was in shock. Do I want to change? I can't I have to finish my mission. I can't even remember what my mission was since robocop knocked me out. It's like a reset button was hit. He must have sensed my inner thought battle and said "as much as I tried to convince everyone your worthless and not worth the struggle they still want you on the team. Think about it." And he walked out.

I sat in the room still strapped in bed lost in my thoughts on battling good and evil. No one has ever talked like that to me and lived to tell it. He is number one on my list. I was so lost in thought I didn't realize Captain righteous walk in. I looked over to him leaning on the door frame "Hi Josie. How are you feeling?" Dumb question how do you think.  I was thinking of something smart to say when he continues "I don't think I fully introduced myself I'm Steve Rodgers or Captain America. You are at the stark towers and we do want you to join us."

Is it just me or is this sounding a bit cultish to you? Then to my complete surprise, he unlocks all my restrictions. I hesitate for a second. I could escape. I know I can but this feeling in me is telling me to stay. It must be the mission. I could stay and collect intel!

Then something happened in my brain. Steve just let me go. He wants me to stay in this so-called group. He has shown me kindness one of my biggest weaknesses. Is he weak or does that make him strong? He willingly showed kindness. I didn't beat him up for anything or do anything to provoke a reaction like this.

I stand there waiting for him to say something. I'm at a loss for words accepting kindness from someone isn't my specialty "Josie I... um .. you are more than welcome to have a room here." I froze. A room? Not the floor or a cot made of hay? "A bed?" I did not just ask that out loud. I mentally punched myself in the face.

Steve chokes out "um of course. You would have your own room. We want you to trust us I know this is going to be rough and we just want to show that we didn't hurt anyone at hydra we just wanted to save you" with that he did the one thing that snapped me back. He hugged me.

My memories came flooding back. Steve never let go. Tears were streaming down my face and then panic. The flood gates of emotions started to come in. I remembered being beaten into submission at 5 years old. I remembered being tortured at 8 years old. Every memory I suppressed from 5-9 years old came flooding back. It sent me spiraling to the floor unable to catch myself. Why does this happen every time! Darkness.