Im sitting on my phone hitting refresh
Waiting for some text that'll never come
It's bad for me
To be alone with my thoughts
I hate myself
Refresh
Why am I so fucked up
Refresh
That food looks so good, no , stop, no eating
Refresh
I wonder if it'll make it better if I cut
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Just one cut
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Ok. No more Ally, this is bad for you
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Just one more won't hurt though...
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If I drink maybe ill stop feeling so damn depressed
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That's what they do , to get rid of feelings right?
Refresh
Where are you , I really need to talk to you
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I'm not alright
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I've decided to quit , I love you, stay safe.
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Goodbye love
I stop hitting refresh
"Hey" they send
"Hi" I reply pretending I didn't just think all of those things
"How are you" does it matter?
"I'm fine" it's a lie.
"K. I've gotta go bye" and I never hit refresh again.
I ended my thoughts at least.
Traded my pain for eternal peace.
JESUS STOP ALLY.
I keep yelling at myself that I can't think those things.
It's not working.
Suicide .
Depression
Death
The end
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Isabelle's Poetry Journal (a continuation of Homesick Angel)
PoetryMy name is Isabelle I am 15 years old (not my real age.) I am a "Homesick Angel" at least that's what I'm told I am called the people like me are called the people who are depressed suicidal empty numb those people they're just trying to go home T...
