"I think you're not the one." She said, breaking his heart into a million pieces. He froze at his spot, trying to understand what she meant.
"I myself don't know what I'm doing but all I know is that what's meant to happen will happen. I haven't figured out my feelings yet. I won't ask you to hold on to me, neither would I ask you to move on. Just keep following your heart. It'll lead you to the right place." She said and turned around to get inside the building to catch her flight as a tear dropped from one of her eyes, which he couldn't see.
The rain started falling, making it difficult to understand if those crystal-like things on his cheeks are raindrops or tears. He just stood there with the beautiful rose that he was unable to give.
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"I'll wait." He said in a low voice before going back to where his car was parked.
[Y/N's POV]
That's so stupid of me, right? I mean, wtf do I mean by I like him but think that he's not the one? My idol whom I've been loving and cherishing since my childhood confessed to me and I.....I rejected him. My idol.....Yes, that's what makes me confused. Do I really love him or do I just like him the way a fan likes her idol? Do I like him or do I just like his looks, talents, and the way he behaves? Do I really like him without any reason as I always wanted or do I have a reason that I always wished to not have? Do I love him unconditionally? Or is it just because he made me smile when I was going through my darkest nights even when he was far away?
Dating someone without knowing about your own feelings is like indirectly cheating on them, at least that's what I feel. I've always believed that when you really love someone, there's no reason why. The day I fall in love with someone that way, I'd know that it's true love. I'm too scared to accept his feelings. What if the things I feel for him aren't real? What if this feeling isn't love? What if I hurt him?
Sometimes I just wish that I didn't know and thought so much and just went on with the flow. I just wanna be like others and like someone because of their looks and actions, with reasons. In other words, let my lust take over love. Just go after what my eyes and mind likes, and never fall in love.
He's just too perfect. It makes me doubt my own feelings. I don't wanna fall for his perfections, but for his imperfections that I've never seen. I'm afraid that I just like him and not love him.
I always ask people to follow their heart when I myself is letting my mind take over. Sometimes it's just not that easy to do what your heart wants. When it's craving for something badly, there's always your mind stopping it from going after what it wants.
I had access to the bright path but still, I chose to walk on the dark one. The reason is nothing but that "What if?". What if we're not meant to be? What if you're not the one I was waiting for?
And that's how I let my thoughts take over the heart of mine.
It hurts. It hurt like hell when I said those words to him. If just saying hurts this much, how much would it have hurt to listen?
[JUNGKOOK's POV]
Like hell. It hurts like hell to listen to those words. Maybe it'd have hurt less if she didn't have any feelings at all? Knowing that you both like each other but still can't be together is the worst thing that can happen. But still.....I'm happy because I took birth in the same century as hers. Being apart is really nothing when you truly love someone. Just knowing that they're somewhere out there is enough. As long I know that we love each other.
"When will you understand that you love me?" I murmured wiping the tears off my eyes with one hand while the other was holding the steering wheel and drove back to my house.
[JHOPE's POV]
"Hey, where are you?" I asked on the call.
"Home." He replied without any emotions.
"What? You said you'll meet us after-" He cut the call before I could finish.
"What did he say?" —Jimin
"Y'all go to the movies as you were planning. I've got some work to do." I said and headed to Jungkook's house worriedly. The boys planned to watch a movie after his confession.
"What work?" —Joon
"Where are you going Hoba? And why did y'all leave Y/n all alone there?" —Jin
I didn't reply to anyone and ran to check if my little brother was okay. I just hope it's not what I'm thinking.
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"Jungkook-ah!! Jeon Jungkook!! Open the door!!" I shouted, ringing the doorbell multiple times.
"Jungkook!!" I started banging the door but still got no response.
"Jung-" He opened the door, interrupting the sequence of my bangs.
"What do you want?" He asked coldly.
"What happened? Why is your face like that?" I asked worriedly.
"Nothing." He said and was about to close the door but I stopped it by putting my foot in between and barged in forcefully.
"What the f*ck are you doing??!? This is my house!!" He shouted at me.
I cupped his cheeks and said, "Tell me, hm? It's okay.......just tell me everything. Hm?"
He looked at me coldly but that didn't stay longer than a minute as he burst out crying and hugged me.
"H-Hyung s-she—"
"Shh.. I know. Don't say it." I said while he sobbed on my shoulder.
"I got rejected by the first person I ever loved." He sobbed harder and I patted his back.
Hearing that, I felt like I got a chance, a chance that I didn't want to make use of.
