I can do anything for them. From giving up my dreams to giving up myself. If any of them tell me to swim with a group of piranhas, I'd happily do so. All these things flooded my mind within a second when the host asked that question. "Would you give up on the girl you like if another member likes her too?" Without any second thought, I proceeded to say yes, unregretfully with a small smile on my lips which was full of love for my boys.
"Ye-"
"No, I won't give up on her." He paused and said, "For anyone." The corners of my mouth went down a bit, failing to hide the little wholehearted smile that was plastered on my face not even a second ago. With eyes full of disbelief, I looked at him. Jungkook.
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"Why?" I looked down and asked.
"Hm?" --Jungkook
"Why...won't you?" I said in a low voice, still trying to convince myself that I didn't hear him right as I slowly snapped my head up, making an eye contact with him.
"What do you mean hyung.....?" He replied in the same volume as mine. Low, confused about what I'm trying to say.
"Can't you understand?"
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So many feelings were growing inside me. Disbelief, anger, sadness, the feeling of betrayal and hopelessness and I let anger occupy the biggest space of my mind.
If he can't give up, then I won't either.
"So after everything, this is what I deserve?" I retorted.
"Hyung...." He said in a very low voice.
"Don't call me that." I said bluntly but regretted immediately as I saw tears forming in his eyes.
"D-Did I do anything wrong hyung? I'm sorry if I did...." You can't see feelings, you can't hear them either but, it was visible in his eyes and could be heard in his voice. Sorrow, even though he didn't know where he went wrong.
"Hyung pl-" One more 'Hyung' and I would've melted completely but that 'No' of him kept echoing in my head.
"Shut up. You just made me regret everything I did for you." I glared at him one last time before getting up to leave the place.
"H-hyung!!!" Jungkook said as tears started streaming down his rosy cheeks.
"Hoseok-ah!! Where are you going!?!" --Jin
"Hyung we're literally in a talk show!! You can't just leave like that!!" Said Jimin but I decided to keep walking.
"I dare you to take one more step ahead!!" Namjoon shouted, making me halt my steps.
I wiped off the tear that just fell from one of my eyes with the back of my palm and turned around to face them.
"I'm sorry for this but it'd be great if we could take a break for a few minutes. I'll be right back." I smiled weakly and turned around again to walk out.
And again, I couldn't help but stop once more.
"And Jungkook, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say it like that."
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Thankfully the restroom was vacant and I could take my time to cool down. I locked the door, leaning against it.
"We've decided a 10 minutes break. Take your time to clear your mind. We'll be waiting." I heard a deep voice say after knocking. Although I couldn't see who it was but guessed it was Suga. After years of staying with them, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't make a mistake.
Now that I'm all alone with silence filled in here, I wonder what I came here for. Does running away really solve everything? Is avoiding my feelings for him really worth it?
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*Two days later*
[Y/N's POV]
You
Jungkook... I wanna say something. It might be too late for it now but still I want to say it. I think I love you. No I don't think, It's true. I do love you.
After a few minutes, he replied.
Justin Seagull
It's no longer the same for me
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I was shocked.....I wasn't but I was. The way he talked to me a few days ago showed that he might fall out of love soon. But...this fast? It showed how much he missed the old us and that he still likes me. Then, what is this now? No matter how many times I think about it, I just can't believe it. What happened suddenly? Am I really that late?
The more I look back at the things I did, The more I regret it.
"I'm sorry Jungkook..." I murmured as my eyes started to get watery.
Only if I didn't let my mind take over my heart.....
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Sorry for the short chapter after such a long time of not updating.... I just want to skip to the cute parts asap cause writing sad stuff is really not my thing ╥﹏╥
But still I've to continue or the story would become boring and messed up🙂👌
