Hope. A very important feeling. Everyone needs to find it. Hope makes you feel like your success is near and when you feel like it's near, you work harder for it. By working hard, of course you'll get success. No matter what, just find some hope. And if you can't find it, just make your own. Maybe lie to yourself by giving yourself fake hope but still make it. Even if you don't succeed, the time you felt happy hoping that you'll end up being happy will still remain. Once you feel something, it remains forever. It might get replaced by some other feeling but it still remains. So cherish the happiness you once felt instead of crying over the one you can't feel now. Smile about the way you got all excited about some little things and shed tears of happiness by looking back at the long path you've walked on cause those times were precious.
Now, why didn't I move on yet? I didn't have any hope to start with when she said "You're not the one." But still I held on because I made my own hope. Maybe it was a lie but I still made myself believe it. No matter what happens, I just think that maybe that's how are story is supposed to be? Our own unique one....maybe? Even if we don't end up together, maybe that's how it was supposed to be? At least I felt the excitement of liking someone. At least I felt love.
Idc if we end up together or not. I don't care about marriage. It's just like a contract made by the society. What matters is if we love each other or not. Yes it is a dream of many to get married and ngl I dream of it too but even if we don't get married, I'll accept it. At least I love her, right?
I've had thoughts of moving on as any normal person would have but then I thought, would I be able to live my life with someone else? Let alone live, I can't even imagine it.
"Jungkook-ah.....I think you should move on now." Hobi hyung patted my back as I sobbed harder.
"Is Jungkookie awake- What happened?!? Why is he crying??" Jimin and others entered the ward but Jhope hushed him.
"Shh don't say anything." Jhope told them and they shared glances at each other being all confused.
"Did y/n-" Jimin tried to say something but Jhope interrupted him.
"Shh!! Don't say anything." --Jhope
Why do they all look so clueless? Isn't it obvious that I'm sad because she didn't come?
"Kook-" --Rm
"No. Don't say anything. Let's not talk about this ever again." I said and they nodded understandingly without understanding.
"Can you please leave me alone for sometime?" I looked at them with pleading eyes as they nodded, heading out after giving a soft pat on my back one by one.
"Hyung!!"
"Yeah?" --Jhope
"My phone?"
"Oh here. I bought a new one as the old one became powder in the accident." He said handling me the brand new device after taking it out of the large pockets of his cargos.
"Thanks...."
"Hm..I'll wait outside then." He said before heading out.
"And yeah! I already saved some important contacts. Thank me later." He stopped once more before giving me a warm smile as I lightly nodded.
I unlocked the device and opened that one specific contact. Being out of my mind, I typed something unexpected.
Jungkook Hope I find someone better than you.
"Sir!! You're not allowed to hold anything for a few days as there's a deep cut on your palm. So excuse me..." The nurse said before taking away my phone and putting it on a table far enough for me to not reach.
"Although you just woke up, I need to give you some medication which will make you fall asleep again." --Nurse
She injected some medicine in my.....veins ig? Idk I don't like biology or any other subject but whatever. So yeah, she injected something in my something and looked at me weirdly after getting no reaction.
"Is he the same person who was crying and rolling on the bed because he didn't want to get vaccinated for the spreading virus?" She thought.
Needles are like Bloody Mary to me but that time that was the least thing that I was worried about. I was thinking about the message I sent just now. Realising that I fucked up again by saying something that I didn't mean and never would in a million years, I started whining and pleading the nurse to get me my phone.
"No." She strictly said, forgetting that I'm a vip by looking at my childish behavior. I probably seemed like a kid to her at that moment who's mouth could be zipped up just by making big scary eyes.
"But the message-" The medicine probably had a strong effect, resulting in me falling asleep immediately.
[Third person's POV]
"I love you Y/n..." He murmured in his sleep.
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Anger pulls you one step backwards from reaching the destination called love.
Never take decisions when you're angry or when your ego is at its highest. You'll end up hurting yourself. Anger builds up a layer of fogg in front of your eyes which doesn't let you see the good in the back. For a moment it feels like the foggy sight is the truth. So don't be stupid and do stupid things cause regret hurts more than anything else. 🙂🐰 Lmao not me giving unwanted advice.
BTW if you didn't understand that 'making your own Hope' thing then I'd explain it to you with my own story later in q/n after the book ends. I'm not sure if I'd actually share it cause yk it's a bit personal but I'll try. Till then, keep voting the chapters for ffs😊
