You're not the one | JJK

41| Hear you out

Days passed by followed by months. How long has it been already?

"10 months. And you're still not together. You really not gonna tell me what happened in the hospital that day?"

"Mf. What are you doing here?" I asked.

"You bitch dare to run away from Korea without meeting me, then ghost me for 10 fucking months and ask me why I'm here?" Bo raised her voice, clearly annoyed at my behavior.

"Hey! When did I ignore you? We did chat these months."

"Yeah? You didn't try to avoid me? You literally didn't pick up a single call and replied every 3 days or so and have the guts to say that?????????????? Ain't I your best friend? I deserve to know how you are doing and hear your voice! Do you even know how worried I was? All I could see was you releasing depressing albums one after another and floating around on the charts. Bitch I'm your fucking bff so I need to talk to you!!"

"I-"

"I couldn't even meet you when you went to the hospital. I was there the first night but had to leave for work in the morning because of some emergency. I was really busy so I couldn't come back that day. Next day when I finally got free in the afternoon and came back to the hospital, you were already gone!! Now can you please tell me what happened cause I'm genuinely worried." She retorted.

"He doesn't want me anymore."

"What?" --Bo

"He said he doesn't want to see me. So I came back." I said calmly but almost at the verge of breaking down.

Bo looked confused. "That crazily whipped guy really said that?" She thought.

"Y/n...Are you sure you heard him right? I mean, the whole conver-"

"I did. Hope asked if I he should call me but Jungkook said no." I interupted.

"You sure there's no misunderstanding between you two? Cause it seems really strange to me. Never in his lifetime would Jungkook say something like that just because you didn't like him back or he lost feelings. You don't even know how my times he held back his tears and smiled saying he'll wait for you. And even if he moved on, the Jungkook that you know, I know and the whole world knows would never ever say that. He'd still love you, even if it is just as a friend." She stated her thoughts.

"But I heard him...."

To be honest, it always seemed like something was wrong to me too. Even though I heard him clearly, I still hoped it was just a misunderstanding. With that little hope, I kept loving him; thinking someday we'll......Nvm.

"If you really are sure then I'll say it's better to move on. Don't keep waiting for nothing." --Bo

"Idk....Let's see what happens. All I know is I love him and if I truly do, then my feelings will remain and if I don't, they'll start fading away on their own. I don't want to force myself to move on. Forcing always means going against your will and that never ends well."

She smiled and patted my head.

"You've got a point. You're doing the right thing by not forcing yourself into anything but that doesn't mean that you need to distance yourself from everyone and go through everything alone. Sometimes being alone feels pleasing but I'm sure that at least once you've felt sick of being alone. Deny it, but you yourself know it. You convince yourself that it's better this way then again at some point, you feel lonely. So please don't....don't do this to yourself and share your feelings with others. They might be hard to find but trust me, there are people who truly care for you. So, just let us hear you out." She said softly. Her words somehow gave me the comfort that I thought I didn't need but was internally dying for. We don't need to face it all alone. We need to hold hands with the world cause we're together bulletproof.

"Okay Mrs. Kim now let's go and eat something. Your dialogues are making me tired. Need some energy." I joked as she chuckled and smacked my head.

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"OKAY BUT WHY TF DO YOU NOT HAVE VANILLA FLAVOURED SQUID CHIPS IN YOUR KITCHEN??!" --Bo

"Istg Bo stop eating weird shit. What kind of combination is that? And where tf do they sell it?"

"That recipe is priceless bitch and you can't buy it. You need to make it with your magical hands. I'll go get the ingredients from the convenience store." --Bo

"I ain't allowing you mf to cook such nasty things in my kitchen. Go back home."

"Bye and I'm taking your credit card. You're rich anyway."

I sighed, looking at my clean kitchen for one last time and walked to the living room with the bowl of popcorn which I previously prepared before Bo suddenly appeared and plopped on the couch.

"This idiot really *chew* directly *chew* flew here." I munched on the popcorn loudly, making the noise echo in the whole living room.

"You know that I can't
Show you me
Give you me
cholahan moseub boyeojul sun eobs-eo
tto gamyeon-eul sseugo neol mannaleo ga
bUt i sTiLL wAnT yOu~" I was dramatically singing one of my favorite songs until-

*Baby's autotuned cries*

"Is she back already?" I looked at the door as someone just rang the bell.

"Gosh, do I need to get up and open the door now?"

She started banging the door loudly.

"Aish.....WAIT YOU HAIRY BLOBFISH!"

I got up from the couch and walked to the source of the sound while stomping my feet on the ground and opened the door to hell.

"Who tf-" I gasped as a few men in black jumped up on me.

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If only you knew how much I wanted you to share the pain with me...