The Remedy | The Untamed

Chapter 4

Half-fake smiles and small talk, that's what they have been doing for the past twenty minutes of being in each other's presence. Feigning proximity when in reality the atmosphere was tense and unpleasant. Their voices are filled with sarcasm, because none of them knows how to speak about their feelings.

Lan Wangji cleared his throat as he entered the room.

"I will go to the Library Pavilion and leave you two alone so you could talk in peace. Preferably without any filters," he suggested and left the building leaving them staring at each other in awkward silence for a moment.

"So.. You two.. I won't lie, I was surprised when the news reached me. I never saw that coming," Wuxian admitted, scratching the back of his neck.

Huaisang took a sip of his tea before answering.

"Well, yes. We haven't seen that coming either. I guess we just felt safe with each other and it somehow developed into the relationship we have now."

"But you are still not married."

"That's true, but we are in no hurry. We don't know what tomorrow will bring us, but we decided to take our time before we make that step."

"It may not be obvious, but I am really happy for you."

"I know and so does he."

Wei Wuxian cleared his throat and straightened his back.

"Now, tell me, what did Lan Zhan summoned you here for? But speak without bulshit, he isn't too good at keeping secrets. I know he is up to something."

"You make him concerned with your recent behavior."

"Ohh, so it's about that. It's nothing serious, I am just suffering from mild insomnia, nothing major."

"Just because you think so doesn't mean it's true. All problems have their roots somewhere. You have to analyse and find a way to resolve them. That's the only way to internal peace, there are no shortcuts."

"Fuck, when did Wangji possess your body, you are speaking like him."

"It's just some common sense."

"And what has my sweet Lan Zhan come up with? You are to serve me as a therapist?" He raised his eyebrows.

"He wants us to restore our friendship, he thinks it may help you make peace with your past and stop fading away."

"It's not so simple Huaisang."

"You don't have to tell me, I still hold grudges against you."

Wuxian's eyes widened in shock.

"You hold grudges? Against me?"

Huaisang rolled his eyes.

"No of course not, because why should I, right? It's not like I faucking brought you back to life, you ungrateful piece of shit!"

"For your facking revange! And you risked the lives of innocent people for that, including our juniors!"

"I wouldn't allow anything bad to happen to them, I am not irresponsible like someone else in this room. And just for your knowledge I could have seeked my revenge in a different way, but I saw an opportunity to bring back my best friend and I took it."

"An innocent man lost his life for that!"

Nie Huaisang sighed and stood up.

"Mo Xuanyu lost the will to live because of his fucked up family, he wanted justice but didn't have the strength to fight for it. I just gave him an idea, and if he didn't want to, he wouldn't have gone ahead with it. He was above suicidal so at least that way his death wasn't in vain. I am sorry that you are unable to see it that way and you choose to look at me like a heartless monster instead."

He turned around and left Jingshi hurt. It is always the same with Wei Wuxian.

***

Huaisang came back to the house he was sharing with Jiang Cheng, but before entering he wiped the tear stains from his cheeks. Although, he wasn't able to hide his reddened eyes and they were the first thing that the other man saw. Even the prettiest smile that Huaisang could give him wasn't able to cover that sadness.

"He made you cry. Again." He stated, standing up and hugging Huaisang, trying to pour all his love for him into it.

"You know he lacks reasoning. That's why making up with him is so damn hard."

"I know. I know even though I haven't attempted to do it yet. It pains me to look at your sad face. more so because I told you we should come here and look at what happened because of that. It took only a couple of hours to have your heart wounded again. I am sorry, my love." He kissed his forehead. "I will kick his ass when I see him." He joked, making Huaisang laugh.

"I love you."

"I love you too, sweetheart."