My Nerdy Little Secret

Feeling complications 1

Craig's POV
12:36 pm

He grabs my hand, this makes me flinch a little. I give him a confused look as to ask 'whats wrong' but he just let's go and says it's nothing. A sigh escapes my mouth as I nod at him and leave, my head is spinning and my stomach feels like when you wake up knowing something big is happening. Maybe I should have stood at the nurses office.

W

When I get back to the cafeteria I see Z, Quinn, and z's new Friend eating. I sit across from them and stare off, Quinn pokes me. "Hey where's my brother? Did he kick the bucket?" she asks with a smile.

Quinn is really attractive too, maybe it's because Jack and her are identical. I've never been in a relationship or really felt any kind of romantic feelings towards anyone so I don't really know if what I feel for jack is a liking. From what my sister has always told me about crushes and her boyfriends it seams pretty similar. "No he's fine, the nurse said he can stay there till lunch is over." she nods and puts her hand over mine.

"You know my brother is a real airhead so he's not gonna make any first moves because he probably thinks your over him. Also hes probably telling himself that the way he feels is just you guys being super Bros." I feel my face get a little hot, does he really think I'm over him after a summer? If he thinks we're just 'bros' will I make a fool of myself making a move?

Z slaps Quinn over the head, "yo I think you scared the kid." I shake my head, " no it's just, should I even make a move if he thinks we're only friends?" I look down " How do I even know if I like him? what if he's right and  this is the feeling of a really close friendship, I wouldn't wanna ruin that. Because.. he's the first person that didn't run or ignore me."

I look up and see z's friend teary eye (think her names Ally???) She fans her face " Sorry sorry it's just that's so sweet. It's obvious you two have something, if it's friendship or more it's still there so I think you two will be fine." she gives me a wide smile that makes me feel warm inside. She had black hair that was a bob cut and she had these really pretty freckles, not too many just enough to look good and not crowded. her eyes were blue and she looked like she would be the mom in a friend group.

"yeah I guess your right." I say with a smile.

W

sixth period is almost over, I look over at Jack who's sleeping during the lecture. I grab his notebook and fill in the notes, im not great at school but I get decent grades. Jack starts murmuring in his sleep although it sounds like nonsense. I pat his hair, it's soft and pretty clean, don't know why that surprised me. Jacks eyes start to open, he looks at me and blushes. " woah!" He jolts up making alot of noise in the quiet room.

"Mr Jesail, may I ask why you are disturbing my class?" asks the teacher, Jack blushes then looks at me. "uh I um- I HAVE TO GO BATHROOM!" he books it out the classroom "MR JESAI-"  I cut off his yell "yeah I'ma go too." I can tell his limit's are being pushed "CERTAINLY NOT MR. THOMPSON, GET BACK HERE!!"

his voice slowly goes away as I walk down the hallway towards the restroom. When I open the door I hear jack talking to himself, I walk towards the stall. " Stupid Craig,stupid brain, GAH STUPID DREAM!!" I open the stall (luckily he wasn't doing any private business) his face goes red and his eyes wide.

"CRAIG! why'd you follow me i-" he comes to a stop then all of a sudden turns around really fast leaving only his back visible. "I wanna be alone."
I hang my head low and nod, as I start to walk away I think back to something my sister told me once.

"usually when someone says they want to be alone, they really don't. they want someone there to comfort them, tell them everything is ok. At least that's how it is for me, if you get slapped one day sorry little bro."

I stop walking and turn around " no." jack looks up " huh?" I walk to him and turn him around so he faces me
" I'm not gonna leave because I know that inside you don't really wanna be alone." I pull him into a hug and feel like I'm gonna burn to a crisp from how red he was. "im not leaving." I say one more time.

"Craig."