My Nerdy Little Secret

feeling complications 1.5

Jacks POV
1:32pm

Craig flips me over and hugs me, I feel my whole body get hot with embarrassment. My breathing becomes inconsistent and rapid, Craig looks me in the eyes "jack i-". Tears fall down my face, the reasoning for this? I don't exactly know but I'm embarrassed because of how I feel right now.

I'm so happy, I'm glad that I ran out of class and want Craig to skip and stay with me till school ends. I look up at Craig and his face goes from concern to hurt, he lets me go and stands up. "Sorry I stepped out of line." He walks out leaving me alone crying.

"no....i-" I wanted to yell and tell him to stay but my mouth wouldn't move. This made me frustrated, more tears fell down making my eyes itch. "craig..." my voice get higher, "Craig..."
I feel everything let go and allow me to yell "CRAIG!" I run out the stall bit Craig's not there.

Why is my heart like this?

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I sit in the silent car as we head to pick up Jason from school. It seams that Quinn is a bit mad at B as she goes on about her friends. I look out the window at the trees and houses, all of a sudden we stop at the light. "That's great babe. So are we eating lunch together tomorrow?" Quinn smiles, it's not fake bit seams a little forced. "oh yeah ofc but the girls and I wanna do some practice first then I'll totally eat with you guys."

Quinn face goes sour, but she takes a deep breath in. "Ok I won't hold you back, you do what makes you happy." They exchange a kiss and go back to what they were doing before. we stop in front of an elementary school and see Jason walking over to us. He has a big smile, good sign, and hops in the car. "Hey Jack!" He shouts at me.

I laugh and give him a fist pump "sup kid, how was school?" I ask, B jumps in. "Yeah monster how was it? Did you make any friends?" She sounds real happy. It's so weird to see how much B has changed over the little time we've known her, she went from a obnoxious brat to a sweet understanding girl who cares about her friends and sibling.

"YEAH! This kid Jaime is tho cool they have a toy dinothaur and can draw a bunch of stuff with chalk!" He starts doing charades with his hands. "They also thay that they like thuperheroes too! Also making bracelets and doing hair. Not my favorite but still cool." B's eyes light up, she faces Jason and squeals.

" Aww my baby, they sound amazing and cool. sounds like you lisp is getting way better too. Gosh by the end of this grade your gonna be better than me hahah!" She ruffles his hair into a mess and faces back forward.

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when we get home we head to the kitchen for a snack. I space out and think about today with Craig, what if I didn't tell him leave? What if I had some brains gah!! Quinn hits me in the head with a pudding cup, " hey you good man?" She asks genuinely concerned, I nod as I look at my pudding. " I think I made Craig mad or hurt him." I admit to her as I attempt to open the lid, the lid refuses to open for some reason and this make me frustrated.

I start yanking the cup as if it's a pickle jar, in mid attempt Quinn hold my hand. "Hey, Jack calm down." tears fill my eyes again, and I feel all the frustration and confusion turn into mush. "I'm so confused Quinny, my heart hurts so much and my head spins. Did I do the wrong think i-" I choke back a sob "I don't want to lose another friend." I lay my head on her shoulder and cry.

She lays her head against my neck and rubs my back, "oh Jack I'm sorry, but trust me when I tell you that you'll never lose Craig." I wrap my arms around her, she tell me in a soothing voice "I know I can be a dick sometimes but always know I'm here for you man, no matter what I promise you I'm not going anywhere."
these words lifted so much weight off of me, my breath finally calmed and I could feel relief.

We break up the hug and face each other. "you good?" she asks, I nod and sniff up my boogers. "Haha good now stop being a crybaby and enjoy some pudding with me." I laugh, yeah. " Hey Quinn, you know you can also talk to me right?" I ask, she smiles at me. " I sure hope so dickwad or else I'd be a crybaby like you hahaha!" we laugh at each other and eat the pudding.

I won't lose another friend, cause Craig's not like him, and if he is I'm better off with him hating me then holding on.