My Nerdy Little Secret

clear thing up

Jack's pov
12:32 pm

      I grab the map from B, "so where we heading?" I ask, B points forward "same way as the last 10 minutes Jack." She says in an annoyed tone. I bite my lip, I want to talk to her but I don't know how to start. "Hey um. Can I ask you a question or like your view on something?" B looks at me surprised, probably from the randomness.

     She nods at me, "so um I found out that Craig likes me, and not like a friend that's what I thought at first too but nooope. And when I told him I didn't know how I felt or if I could except his feelings he just left!" I take a deep breath and look at B, her face is just shock. She coughs and looks down "ok um I don't know much about that kinda stuff, but if you don't like him then you have to tell him that. And it's not your fault for not having the same feelings." She explains.
  
    "Yeah but that's the thing, idk if I like him or not. Iv only liked girls and sure he makes me like stupid happy but..... I don't wanna mistake friendship for liking." I tell her, she lightly punches my arm "hey man, you'll figure it out but until then at least make sure he respects your choice and gives you time to think." She smiles at me.

     I smile so big that my face hurts, "HHHH I'm so glad you'll be my sister in law!!" I pick her up and carry her on my back, she blushes and hits my head "HEY DON'T JUST BLURT STUFF LIKE THAT!!" She exclaims. I laugh and continue carrying her up the hill.

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    We finally arrive at the end of the hike and are dying of exhaustion. B hands me a water bottle, I chug it in less then 5 seconds and try catching my breath. We sit down and wait for Quinn and Craig, to catch up with us. When Craig gets here I'll confront him, tell him I need time to think and if he can't except that then he doesn't deserve my friendship.

     ARRGGHH but I don't wanna stop being his friend!! Maybe I'll just leave that part out, all of a sudden I feel someone blow air right next to my ear. I jump and look back, "hello thing two and Cheer." Z was smiling at us, I blush. B laughs and flicks Z's forehead, all of a sudden I'm tackled by Quinn "JACK!!" I fall down from her trying to get a Piggy back ride without a heads-up. "Ow dude hahah give a warning next time. You way a ton." Quinn stomps on my head and pouts "shut it, I ain't fat."she says then gets comfortable.

    May I remind you that she's still on top of me, so while she'ss comfortable I on the other hand am not. I look back at Craig who is sitting on a rock, I nudge Quinn "oi let me go, I'ma talk to Craig." I tell her. She nods and gets off, before I can walk away she grabs me "hey man be careful with him ok, he may seam like he's got all his shit together and he's always calm but he's human too ok." She gives me a concerned look.

     I nod although I'm confused, she lets me go. I head over to Craig and start thinking over what I'll say to him, I hover over him nervously "hey um Craig can I sit here?" He looks at me and nods then goes back to staring at the tree's. I sit next to him and just look at my feet, I can't bring myself to speak. "Um" I choke, "look um i- I don't really understand all of this right now and im- confused. Ok? Iv never been in this situation or felt this way and what If what we have is just a really strong bond??"

    I hold my head cause the world is spinning "if this is just a friendship I don't wanna confuse it for a relationship! And if it's not just a Friendship I don't wanna mess up what we have i-" I start to choke up and feel my eyes water. "I just need time to think but please. Don't leave." Suddenly I feel Craig hug me, my eyes widen and my mind goes blank "heh, your full of surprises big guy."