This Time Next Year

baby steps

Gabbie POV

                 Adie walks in again and sits next to me on the bed

A: alright now...uh so um...where would you wanna have a wedding?

G: well i mean i'd kinda want one in Pitt yanno so it's a lil easier on my family

A: yeah i figured that

G: but like what about you babe?

               I put my arm around her shoulders

G: this isn't a one way thing we both have to decide and agree 

A: yeah i know i just...*sigh*

G: what?

A: truth is i haven't been the most excited to think about the wedding cus like...which one of us is most likely walking down the isle Gabs? like be honest we both know it'd be me and i just...

              She turns her head to the side. Freddie starts purring kinda intensely to her and Radio hops on the bed...so that was it wasn't it? I gently grab her chin and make her look at me. Her eyes are facing down to the bed

G: hey

                She looks up giving me puppy dog eyes

A: *mumbles* i doubt they'd c-come anyways  

G: babe it don't matter if you don't have a dad to walk you down the isle...or a mom it's just a dumb old tradition thing but like who cares-

A: I d-do Gabs...i know i'm n-not the only person in the w-world to deal with it but i...sometimes i just wish...i d-don't know

G: look we can work that out later okay? heck i can walk down the isle if you want really

A: can we change the subject?

G: sure

               I let her go and she grabs Stawberry, her stuffed dino

G: okay um how about the basics...colors? theme?...cake? or cakes?

A: ooohh cake uh...um...i don't know i guess we'd have to think of who we'd invited to figure out how big  or i guess how many smaller one's there'd be...this is a lot to think about

G: yeah

A: ...i mean...i think at least my sister would come

G: see? someone would come...besides the people that matter'll be there. Lets get back on track though

A: right, so colors uh...well i don't know...you like yellow so there's that

G: orange goes with yellow so i guess we could do the warm colors

A: ...yeah true...aye dios mio i r-really don't know how to start this we need a planner

G: nah shit aha...also one more basic thing pup

A: hm?

G: so um...how'd you feel about maybe not marrying in a chruch?

A: ...

G: Adie?

A: i'm just thinking...

G: ight

             I list the basic things she already said into a doc...next thing i know she's laying her head on my shoulder. I look at her...

G: you forgot what you were thinking about didn't you?

A: *chuckle* yeah

G: marrying maybe...not in a church?

A: oh...*sigh* i um...whatever you want is fine Gabs

G: you would mind wouldn't you?

A: i...yeah?...no? it's...complicated yanno...being a lesbian...it's not like the religion i was raised with and that i kinda still feel attached to...accepts me...i know you honestly wouldn't care though

G: just cus i'm debating if He's real don't mean anything...i know there's something up there...so i'll ask again...marrying in a church or nah?

A: *gulp*...it'd be hard to find one that'd let us marry in it 

G: i know...but we would

A: ...*nods*

G: yeah?

A: ...yeah...a church or like outside of one

G: ight

A: thanks

             I lean my head onto hers and type "church/near one" into the doc...i look at the clock

G: damn it's almost time people normally have dinner *chuckle* ...you hungry?

A: not like...now 

G: i'm bored 

A: me too

              I close the laptop and put it on my nightstand...I look at the window and see it stopped raining for now

G: soooo uh wanna go eat out?

A: ...if you want

               I can tell she'll be bummed about the parents thing for a while...and i've learn what she needs when she's down like this

G: lets just chill here for a bit...alright babe?

A: *happy sigh* that'd be great