Mean It: Noah Jupe

8. 𝐅𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐂𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐞

(𝐀/𝐍: 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐩𝐮𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫, 𝐅𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐲/𝐧' 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐢 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐧𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐦 𝐭𝐨 𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐠, 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 15 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐨𝐟 17)

𝐘/𝐍 𝐏𝐎𝐕:

𝐈 𝐬𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞, 𝐥𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐚 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐞 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐨𝐲 𝐢 𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝.

i still loved him after all of it.

i mean i hate him, but i'd say it with a smile cause i know deep down if he ever came and asked me out again, i'd do it all again.

but then again i just want this brutality to over, i just want it to be how it was before, before people told me what to do, wanting to be in my life.

then i got a song idea.

"hmm." i said to myself.

"know that love you so bad,"

"one heart broke 4 hands bloody, those things i did, just so i could call you mine."

"the things you did, well i hope i was your favorite crime."

"used me as an alibi, i cross as you cross the line, and i defended you to all my friend,"

"cause you know that i'd do it all again."

i had to put that in there, cause he knew, he most definitely knew.

"all the things i did, just i could you miiiine,"

"well i hope i was your favorite crime,"

"it's bittersweet, to think of all the damage that we do,cause i was going done, but i was going down with you,yeah all things broken, all the trouble that we made, cause i say that i hate you with a smile on my face, OH look what we became,"

i know where i want the belts and notes.

i had another in mind too.

(skip to after you write'brutal')

"hey, james, how soon can i get into the studio?"

"um right now."

"ok thanks!"

i end the call with my producer, and call auggie, Bri,Jesh, and Dom to come with me.

we get there around 11pm.

"ugh y/n why so late!" bri complains for like the 100th time.

"don't you like to hear my music first?"

"yeah!"

i approached the door and saw james waiting in a chair.

"hey james!" i say as i hug him.

"hi y/n!"

"hi, so i had two songs i want to record."

"ok let's go!"

we walk in and my friends just crashed on the couch.

"ok so let's do lyrics,"

"ok so i want to keep some lyrics for reason such as my thoughts that i put into them or they are how i feel about this issue i have."