Curved Line

Chapter 36 - Not waiting for forever

                   | ReZay |

"Jaleecia can you please go pick up the toys you just left on the floor?" I asked my three year old daughter. She could be so hard headed sometimes. "But mommy!" She looked up at me with her puppy dog eyes.

"Girl you are going to be the death of me." I laughed as I sat on the floor besides her. "Just because you use that face on me doesn't mean you get out of picking up your own mess. Now get to it!" I pointed in the direction of the toys.

She smacked her lips and stomped towards the direction of the toys. "Uh-huh fix that attitude right now! Your not going to be doing that with me okay?" I asked sternly. "Fine." She said with a little attitude. "Excuse me?" I asked giving her a face.

"Sorry mommy." She sincerely said after she turned around and started picking up her mess.

I got up and headed to the living room and started straightening up. I hate a dirty house. I turned on Pandora and started cleaning until I heard my phone vibrate signalling I had a text.

Looking at my phone it was a unsaved number.

ReZay it's your mom. I just love how you haven't called or texted me. I had to search high and low just to find your number anyways I was just letting you know I should be by your place in about 30 minutes. See ya in a few!

"No what the hell?" I mumbled to myself as I sat down and put my hands alongside of my face. "Mommy are you okay?" Jaleecia asked as she walked up towards me. I just faked a smile just to make her happy. "Yeah mommy is going to be alright." I said as I picked her up and hugged her.

"You know mommy loves you right?" I asked. She giggled and shook her head yes. "Of course mommy , your the best never forget that." She tapped my nose with her index finger. I just smiled and laid back with her still holding onto me.  "You are so smart." I laughed. "What do you want to be when you get older?" I asked just to be curious. "I want to make people feel better mommy." She looked up at me. "Huh what do you mean by that?" I asked confused.

"And I thought you were the genius mommy. I said that because your always sad and when I come around and talk to you I see you smile and laugh a lot. I think I can make people feel better duh." She said in a serious tone. I just looked at her in utter amazement. I don't understand how I got blessed with this smart girl here.

"I believe you'll be great in anything you do." I said as I snuggled closer to her and closed my eyes as she did the same.

I didn't realize I had fallen asleep with Jaleecia until I heard someone knocking on my door. I checked my phone and it was a little after nine.

I moved Le off of me and got up to open the door. "Well about damn time." My mom rudely said as she pushed her way through the door. "Could you not." I asked getting irritated. "Excuse me?" She asked. "I think you heard me." I said as I turned around to keep walking before she yanked my hair back towards her. "Don't fuck with me right now okay." She yelled.

I grabbed my hair from her hand and stepped back. "If you came in here to abuse me then you could turn around and leave. Your disturbing my daughter while she's asleep." I said sternly. She laughed.

"I'm grown. If I want to yell and wake her ass up I will." She chuckled as she walked over to the couch and yanked Le up by her arm. I grabbed Le and picked her up. "Stop fucking touching her." I yelled. "Ow mommy my arm hurts." Jaleecia said to me. "It's ok baby." I said rubbing her arm.

"I don't even know why you decided to keep this child anyways. I mean why would you keep a child and you don't even know the baby's father." My mom ranted. "Mom stop. I know him and he knows his daughter. Quit!" I yelled. "Le go to your room and close the door.

"You think you better then me? Is that it bitch? Because if you think that I'm gone need you to guess again! You hear me? You ain't shit ReZay." She yelled at me as she pulled a cigarette out to smoke. "This apartment you living in." She raised both her hands as she looked around. "Your hoe ass probably got a grown ass man paying for this shit."

"You can dismiss yourself." I said lowly as I walked over to the door and opened it. She stood up and grabbed her things before looking at me and raising her hand at me. She reached back and punched me in my jaw as I fell on the ground. "Leave now." I screamed.

"What the hell is going on?" I heard a familiar voice saying as it came closer. "This that Nigga you got paying your bills?" My mom laughed as she still stood in the door way. "Who are you?" Rolo asked as he walked through the door and picked me up. "I'm good." I said to him as I yanked away from him , he looked at me with a surprised look but brushed it off. "She sucking your dick just so you can keep paying the rent?" My mom asked. I looked at her in pure embarrassment. "Yo you mad buggin' she ain't sucking shit. I don't pay shit either , everything in this apartment she bought and for you to think this low of your daughter is sad as hell. Let alone you putting your hands on her for your own amusement! You pathetic as hell." Rolo said as he started getting mad. His nostrils started to flare , fists started to ball and his breathing started to become unsteady.  "She was just leaving." I said.

"I'll be back." My mom laughed as she walked out the door and through the hallways.

I closed and locked the door and walked over to the couch and grabbed the pillow to squeeze to keep me from crying. "She beats you?" Rolo asked as he came to sit next to me.

I didn't answer.

"Could you speak to me? Damn you act like I can't help you! Why you always pushing a nigga away when all he wanna do is help you? If I wouldn't have came at the time I did she would've beat your ass and Lele would have to see you like that. If anything you should be thanking me, you should be glad I stood up for you when you couldn't and I can't get a simple thank you or an explanation. You real fucked up ya' know." He spoke loudly.

"I didn't ask you to do any of that." I said lowly. I knew he deserved a thank you or a explanation but I didn't want him thinking I needed him. I can hold my own, I've been doing this since I was six and I'll continue doing it.

"You right ma' you didn't but I wanted to help you out but you can't see that. I swear you ungrateful as fuck, you really need to open your eyes and see that ain't no Nigga gone love you and treat you and your daughter the way that I do and that's fine. You don't understand how much I love you and that little girl in there but you really gone sit up here and act as if I don't treat you or your daughter right. Like I can't handle your situation! You not the fucking only one going through something Re! You not. Stop thinking your invincible, stop thinking you don't need nobody because you do. You really about to loose the only Nigga that'll kill and die for your ass man cause I'd be damned if I wait for a female that don't want me as much as I want them." He said getting angrier with each word he spoke.

"So what are you trying to say." I asked confused. " I can't wait for forever." He said before leaving out the door.