Curved Line

Chapter 34 - New options

               ZaCari

I haven't seen my family in about two months, that's crazy man I miss they ass but I done fucked up and got caught up with the drug game and it's something I just can't quite leave just yet. This shit here is my life and I can't leave my life. You can't take the hood out of a nigga , that's just something you can't do but I met this girl ... a beautiful ass girl she's Nigerian and white she is like the only female I've ever fucked with and ain't fuck up what I had for another girl that ain't worth my time, anyways I've been fucking with her for awhile now and my family doesn't even know her yet and I don't plan on letting them meet her just yet cause pops be tripping and sis be on that with the females that I've brought her around.

Get This!

She's pregnant and I know It's mine man! I'm so excited to be a father and all but then again I don't want my family in danger. That's something I can't do not at all. Maybe I'm wrong for not letting Dad, my sister and little brother know about what's been going on in my life but I just want to do me for awhile , I want to make my own choices with out them having their opinion on every little thing that I do that shit is irritating and it gets to me. I feel like when I mess up I don't get a '' It's okay, keep your head up.'' I constantly hear bickering and them just yelling in my ear and that shit makes me feel like I can't fend for myself and I feel like I'm doing just fine with out them , don't get me wrong I love my family with all my heart but sometimes change is better and I feel like I'm one step closer to change and I'm thankful for everything that I have.

''You okay? you seem like you were daydreaming or something.'' My girl asked as she walked into the T.V room where I was at. '' Yeah I'm fine why you ask that?'' I asked confused of why she asked me that I'm all good as long as she's here by my side. ''Baby I can't ask a simple question it just seemed like you had a lot of stuff on your mind.'' She laughed as she sat down beside me and rubbed her stomach.

'' How's my little girl doing in there?'' I chuckled as I laid my head on her stomach and rubbed it. '' She has been kicking my ass , every time I try and lay down to go to sleep she's kicking me. She is so active.'' She said as she put her foot on my leg. '' That's daddies little girl I'm trying to tell you, have you thought of a name yet?'' I've been curious to know what she came up with because I have a few names in mind.

'' Yeah I have three names in mind actually. I like the names Samia, Zari, or even Kaden.'' She said as she took a picture of me laying on her stomach. '' I kind of like Samia the rest of them huff. What about Jameelah or Jaleah?'' I said actually pleading she'd pick one of those names.

'' Yeah I like both of them surprisingly.'' She said before my phone started playing August Alsina make it home signalling that my sister was calling. '' Hold on my sister calling me baby.'' I finished as I answered the phone.

'' Wassup baby girl?'' I called through the phone. '' Hi I was calling because my brother barely calls his family to see how they're doing and he barely lets them know about how his life is going but that's fine.'' she said in a sad tone. '' Don't do that Zi you know I'm just trying to have my own life.'' I calmly said. '' Yeah with out us in the picture.'' She sarcastically said. '' Why are you doing this?''

'' because your my older brother and you haven't spoken to me or your family in two months you could've been dead shit hell if I know you probably got a baby on the way knowing you but since your trying to have your own life I'll leave you to it. I just called to hear your voice but I see your busy bye.'' She said before hanging up on me.