Impossible not to love //Minho

I can't lose him

As I wake up I see that Minho is still sleeping peacefully and with his face squished into the pillow making me chuckle.

Silent I get out of bed I go outside to see that it's still dark and nobody is awake. I go to the Woods and I sit down next to a tree not having the energy to climb up.

I think about what happened the past week and I feel powerless, why did this all happen? Why me? I think to myself

A few minutes go by and I walk back to my own hut where I sit on my bed wiping the tears of my face that had escaped my eyes.

I lie down and I feel an stingy pain on my right arm. I look at it and I the misstake I make yesterday, even tho I knew it was a misstake it was impossible to resist the urge of doing it again.

I walk away to the medjack bandaging my arm for the old cut. It wasnt deep and it was almost healed but I knew I had to cover it up.

I go back to Minho's hut and I see that he was awake and changing into his running clothing.

"Goodmorning, you up already? I only have to run in about an hour!" He say as he puts on his shirt.

"I woke up early today, I couldn't sleep anymore" while returning the kiss he gave.

"You're sure you dont want to sleep a bit more?" He ask sweet.

"Nahh, want to get breakfast?"

He nods and we walk out and go the kitchen to see if Frypan made food already.

He was still busy so Minho and I went to sit down and I snuggle up to him still being quite tired.

After breakfast we heard the doors open and Minho walk towards them with Ben. Ben has always been nice to me but he was a bit weird.

As I gave Minho a last kiss he went into the Maze and I see them both turning left and disappearing behind the giant walls that separated us from the rest of the world.

I thought about how, but most important IF we where ever getting out of here and what we where going to do WHEN we do.

I didnt knew time went by so fast and before I knew it its was lunch time, i thought about Minho and how he always perfectly knew when it was time for a break.

Just him being on my thoughts made me smile I bit.

"What are you smiling at?" Newt say while snapping his fingers in front of me to wake me up from the trance I was in.

"Ohh, someone. No one of you concern" I say as I keep smiling turning a but red.

"Hrmmm" he scoffs and continues eating.

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I get up to wait at the doors as it's almost time that Minho and Ben would come back. The other gladers start to gather in front of the doors waiting for them to return.

We they dont I start getting a bit scared. It's almost totaly dark and nobody has come out of the Maze.

I let out a sigh of relief when I see Ben come around but I immediately tense up when I realize that Minho isnt following.

Moment later we all hear the doors close and everyone starts to walk away when they close.

I keep standing there hoping it was a dream or that it's all just a joke but nothing happens.

I break down onto my knees and I let tears flow from my eyes and over my cheeks reaching my chest that is moving way to fast for normal.

I start hyperventilating and I cant think straight anymore. I feel chuck sit next to me and he hugs me closely. I let out a soft whimper in his curly hair.

A few hours later I still lie there, with my back against the wall. Chuck gave me a blanket when I refused to go to my own hut.  I was cold but I didnt care.

I lost the boy of my dreams, the man that had my whole heart, he made me happy in a place where happy was far away.

As I think of all the happy memories we had I smiled, that smile immediately turned into a soft cry knowing I would probably never see the love of my life again.

I never thought I would lose him but here I am, losing the one I needed the most in life.

Nobody had ever made it out of the maze while spending the night there. There where grievers and they would kill him the moment he was locked out of the glade.

For a second I think to hear someone screaming at the other side of the glade but I decide that it was just my imagination playing jokes on me.

"Y/n!!!"

No, it cant be.

"MINHOOOOO!!" I scream hoping so much of getting an response.

"Y/N, IM HERE, IM OKAY"  he yells over the giant walls.

"DONT YOU DARE LEAVE ME, MINHO, U HAVE TO CONE BACK TOMORROW. DONT LEAVE ME"  still not believing it that he is actually okay.

After a few hours I wake up, was it a dream? The sun started to shine and all the gladers gathered in front of the maze.

It couldn't be a dream, right?

I couldnt lose him. Not him.

As the doors open but no one appears the gladers start to go to they're work disappointed.

I keep standing there, still deciding if it was a dream or it actually happened.

But then I see an shadow turn around the corner, it was sort of limping and he looked like he was in pain.

The shadow was...
MINHO.

Not caring about the rules at all I run into the maze and I grab Minho's shoulder.

"HELP ME, YOU SHANKS!" I scream.

I support him untill we reach the med-jack hut.

I let him lie down and cuddle the crap out of Minho. He groans and I let go of him, while crying I kiss him like it's the last time.

"Dont you ever do that again" I say as I let my forehead rest against his.

He chuckles and I check his leg, it was  a quite large cut but with a bit of rest ot would be fine.

Minho had fell asleep in the meantime and I  went to lie next to him, as I cuddle him I think about how I almost lost the one that has been there for me since I came up in this shitty place.

Glad having Minho back I fall asleep in his arms, his warmth making me feel safe and comfortable but most of all happy.