Impossible not to love //Minho

His mistake

I wake up in the exact same position as when I went to sleep last night, with Minho's arms around my waist.

I lay there for a moment, enjoying the feeling of his steady breath against the back of my head. I feel loved and I wonder if it is already time to get out of bed.

Silent I try to escape from his grip but its impossible. He hugs be closer and I know he is awake.

"Your not going to escape THAT easy" he says in his attractive morning voice, not fully awake.

"Wasnt trying to" I say back stubborn, trying not to let him know that his voice is so hot. He chuckles and start to tickle me. I scream it out when he reaches my armpits and he keeps going. I start to tickle him to and he looks at me confused.

"You really thought I couldnt handle your tickling?"

I look at him defeated and out of breath I kiss him, he kisses me back passionate and I finaly get out of bed, Minho looks at me pouting and I say "I'm sorry minnie, I have to help the new greenie" with an tiny smile.

When i get to her she runs to me immediately and says "I KNOW MY NAME, I KNOW IT!!!"

"That's fast! What is it?" I ask intrested.

"Its Lea!"

"Wow, that's a really pretty name!" I think about that Lea is actually really pretty and I feel worthless. What if Minho liked her more. I have never seen myself but he always tells me that I am pretty, what if he is lying. What if he just feels sorry for me because I am so ugly.

I start to panic a bit and I walk to woods leaving Lea all alone with an confused look.

When I arrive I go sit on a tree and I feel stupid for being so weak.

I hate being like this, i am just weak when I cry and nobody should see me like this.

When I hear something in the bushes I look up startled, still trying to fight back the tears that are threatening to leave my eyes.

"Hello??" I ask carefully.

Nothing.

"HELLO!?" I ask again, not so carefull but still wondering who could be here.

I furrow my eyebrows confused when I see Zart standing there with an weird smirk on his quite ugly face.

"Well, what are you doing here all alone, little princess?" He ask while stopping closer to me.

I feel uncomfortable and I take a step back, at the same time Zart takes a step forward to me.

"Dont call me 'princess', I don't like you" i try and sound confident but my unsteady voice betrays me.

"Oh nothing, babygirl. Just looking for some fun" and there goes the smirk again. He step closer and my back touches an old tree when I take a step back again. He is now so close that if he'd move a bit more he would touch my lips with his.

"I dont know what the hell you are doing, but I dont like or want it" this time with more confidence.

"Oohh, got some confidence, I like it" he says as he succeeds to take a step forward again.

My head spins and I know what he is trying to do. I feel disgusted and I want to run away as soon as possible but he puts both of his hands next to my head, so I cant move.

I see him lean in and I feel lips touching mine. I freeze and have no idea what to do

'wake up, please I am begging you, let this be a dream. Let me wake up now' I think to myself.

I dont wake up and i realize that Zart has taken his clothes of and started with mine. He almost succeeded taking of my hoodie that i have been wearing but I slip under his arm and run away. He grabs my hand and he hits me in the face, I scream it out but I keep running.

My hoodie still half of and my hair in a mess I scream for help. I see no one and I remember that Minho is running and that Alby was with him so that means that Newt was the leader for today.

"NEWT, HELP ME" I scream while tears flow down my cheeks because of what just happened.

I see Newt running out of the homestead and looking my way.

"What's wrong?" He ask while looking weird at me.

I start crying and I fall onto my knees, Newt hugs me and I explain fast what happened. I see his expressions change while telling my story.

He looks mad and goes into the woods where Zart still is.

I see Lea coming to me and she said she heard what happened and hugs me. I feel tears flowing again and I make her t shirt totaly wet, we go to her hut to do nothing actually, we just talk about anything but what just happened.

I'm glad she knew I wasnt able to talk about it to her. We talk about me and her and how she liked Gally. She can see I dont understand what there is to like but she just laughs a bit.

We dont realize that time has passed so quickly untill Minho storms into her hut. He look around and when he sees me he hugs me. I feel tears go down my face once again and I am sick of it

"Take her to bed Minho, she is exhausted" Lea says to Minho, softly.

He picks me up and takes me to his hut and let's me lie down.

"I am sorry, baby, I should have been there for you I should have never left." I hear Minho sniff.

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When I wake up I see that Minho is here to, he is just sitting on the side of his bed. I lie there with the covers on me and I dont remember how I got here. I try and think about what happened and then I remember.

I remember the woods, Newt, the talking with Lea. I feel tears stream down AGAIN. I fight them back but it's to late.

Minho looks at me and I see that his eyes are red and puffy like he had cried all night.

"Morning" I say like nothing happened, hoping he would get the hint that I wasnt ready to talk about it yet.

He nods slightly to say he understands and then he hugs me softly. It was my fault after all, I think.

'I shouldn't have ran to the woods, I was weak and selfish. It's all my fault! It always is' I think to myself and I start hyperventilating.

"Shhh" Minho says, he gives me a kiss on my forehead and I calm down a bit.

I feel at my cheek and It is really swollen, it's a giant bruise from when Zart hit me.

Minho explains that everyone is having a gathering to discuss what would happen to Zart now that he did this.

A few hours later Minho come out of the gathering room and he looks sad. I ask him what they will do to Zart but he said they where just going to put him into the slammer for 2 days.

Nothing more, I feel terrified when I see Zart walk past me to the slammer.

He winks and I see Minho walk towards him and punches him in the face. A little stream of blood goes down his nose but Minho doesn't stop.

I had to physically grab him of to stop him. Minho's hands bleed and I take him with me to the med-jack hut.

I clean his fists and I dont talk to him.

I feel like nothing mattered anymore, I dont eat that evening and the next day I dont eat anything either. I just stay in bed a day and I sometimes get out if someone needed my medical care.

I dont really care about it though, I dont care at all.